I need to Lean just a bit more.

I got some news today that is not very pleasant. We rent our house and have been told that due to the landlords splitting up and other things between them we now have 60 days to move. The problem? We do not have money to move on and I may be losing my unemployment at the end of December and our income will go down. I am confidant however that God has something in store (at least I hope so I am trying to be confidant) God allows trials and as we go through them we need to lean on Him to give us the strength to make it through, and as we rely on Him we grow and it can be a good thing. I have to say I am not looking forward to this time but, I am determined to be positive and smile the blessings that God has for my family and I will be I am sure something incredible and THAT I am looking forward to. I am thankful for my friends and their support one friend reminded me today that it was only temporary and I can get through it even if we have to live in the trailer again....it came to pass and I will cling to that. I am also reminded that I need to chat with God continually in the good times and in the bad because He wants constant communication with His children with that I leave you this....Cling to God and His word He will always get you through any circumstance and that is just way cool...

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Humble....

I went to Bible study tonight and I was reminded that I need to be humble....I have come to the conclusion that I need to want to be humble or learn the hard way by having God make me humble....I do not know about you but, I am liking the easier of the two. There are times unfortunately  that I need to learn that lesson and it is a very humbling experience (pun intended). King Nebuchadnezzar had to learn the hard way and he thought that he could do and say as he pleased and found out that his dream really was gonna happen and trust me I would never want to go through what he did EVER....granted my hubby says if I want salad I can go dump dressing on the grass and eat that but I am thinking even with dressing the grass would be ummm just EWWW! But that is what O'l Nebby  had to eat and smell and and okay you get it I am sure.....right? I suppose my point is I think when we have lessons to learn God gives us a chance to learn it on our terms and if we don't well then it is on His terms....His terms guarantee that we will learn the lesson and hopefully never have to take that class again....Beth Moore talked about life lessons tonight and I am telling you I am thinking that learning them for life is the best way to go because regoing through all that stuff just to get what God wants us to see is not something that sounds exactly pleasant. Humble thy self in the sight of the Lord and He will lift you up....isn't that the way it goes? makes sense to me. Being humble makes us teachable and being teachable makes us able to teach and we are here to lead, teach, live as God wants and learn. I want to be taught so I can teach Lord help me to be humble and show me what you want me to see, do and learn.

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Just checking in....

Alas I did not post again yesterday OOPS.....so I am checking in today. We had the Hanging of the greens at Church yesterday and it was so much fun to see the Church transformed for the GREATEST BIRTHDAY EVER!!!! which is only 27 days away. The post I made about Black Friday seemed to cause quite a stir with some people and, I have decided that it was okay I felt I needed to say it. I do think I made people angry and I had no intentions of doing that. Moving on Thanksgiving was really good I had a good time with my family and I got some shopping done. I did get some wrapping done too which is one part I so love to do because, I can disguise the gift and totally throw the getter of it off. As we head into the new week and people get back to the regular routine keep the thankfulness going it is a good reminder to us to be thankful everyday. I know this is suprer short but, I do have a routine as well and I must get to it have a beautiful day.

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

To Black Friday or To not Black Friday but, that is NOT the question...

I posted this on my Face Book and wanted to share it here and maybe add a bit to it keep in mind I copied and pasted so it will look different Ok I have been reading posts and comments and I have made a few comments on posts and at the risk of offending someone I am going to speak up now I because I am bothered a tad little bit by some of them......so I am sorry IF anyone gets offended but I will NOT apologize for what I am about to say......Ok I know some of you do not like Black Friday it is crazy out there but, I LOVE it not all parts of it but, most of it. and that is not what bothers me what does is this.....the feeling I get from reading some of the posts or comments is this, people are talking about how the crazys are out to get the good deal and they do not care about the real reason of Christmas (pausing here) Yes that is true Christmas has been commercialized so badly and it is a stomping ground for people to go a tad nuts which I do not approve but, it happens so I deal with it....moving on, then I read how there should be people out there handing out tracks and witnessing....(pausing again) true, it would be a great opportunity to share the gospel but, to approach someone and stop them from what they are doing there to do it, is not the way to get them to listen, and some of them KNOW God...ok off we go again.....I guess the better way to say it is this, the feeling I get is some people are almost angry and want to force God down someones throat to get them to see and I do not think that is how God would want us to do this....Jesus is all about compassion, love, kindness, caring, giving and so on. The Spirit of Christmas is all of those things too and I am not seeing any of it in some of what I am reading and it makes me sad. There almost feels like anger and dare I say an undertone of bitterness and hate in there too......we are the prime example to the world of what God wants us to show and we all have to watch our actions and words if we really want to win people over.....yes BF is a shoving match for some I know I got shoved but, it is also a good chance to get good deals and there are limits on what they have so yes there is competition to get stuff that is the unfortunate part of it all. People feel they have to push their way around to get what they are there for not all shoppers are there for Christmas the big items may be something they have been wanting and BF is a good time to get it. Do not like BF? then don't go but, please do not criticize the people that do, besides waiting in line is the best time to chat with someone and tell them about Jesus and witness to them to plant seeds get them thinking my opinion is, that is the best way to reach out to people standing on their turf where they are comfortable.....sharing Jesus is showing Jesus. I am going to guess if Jesus was standing in Wal Mart during the chaos He would have been kind and loving and I want to say He probably would have helped a few people out while He was there........ok I am done now......


I feel very strongly about this I do not feel bad about enjoying BF I am on a budget too and my daughter has a Birthday 5 days before Christmas but, my actions should speak of Jesus...I helped a lady out while I was there and she told me I was the kind of BF shopper she liked it made me feel good.....


That's my thought for the day,


Crazy for Christmas

What Would Jesus Do?

It has been a really long night and day for me but, what I saw yesterday really brought home for me how commercial people have made Christmas and it has saddened me. I really wanted good deals on gifts yes but, the pushing and shoving and the cussing I heard from people was hard to see, hear and take. I am not done with my shopping I have a few things left I want to get but, I am really stressing the importance this year of what Christmas is really all about. Yes I was in my element so to speak I did enjoy the night after the shoving was done, just watching people and their reactions was tons of fun in it self. I helped a lady out yesterday and she said you are the kind of  black Friday shopper I like.....why else would I be any other way? I am not showing Jesus by being rude to people and I am not going to get any closer to what I want by causing a riot. What is the big deal anyway? Why take more than you need? Others are there for the same thing....one lady in the game section was taking 5 of everything for what? To resell on ebay? Probably. I have had to many people tell me that is why they shop, so they can turn around and make more on the product......is it fair? no but, it is what they do. There is no reason to be rude back that is not what Jesus would do so, if CHRISTmas is about CHRIST I need to show the world what that is all about. I have a challenge for you show the shoppers Jesus while you are out in this crazy time let them see God in this season. When you do even if people do not show that they notice they will and you will be DOING what Jesus would DO....Merry Christmas everyone BLESSINGS!

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Be Thankful.....

I realize that I did not make a post yesterday the first one since I started oops oh well. Today is Thanksgiving a day full of busyness and for some stress and that is ok just remember to take some time to be thankful and a moment or two for yourself so you do not stress to much. I am Thankful for the blessings God has given me and I am Thankful for my family and my friends. I just want to say HAPPY THANKSGIVING to those who are serving our country and I am sorry you can not be home with your families today, because of you we are free and THANK YOU!!!! I hope today is full of love, joy and blessings for everyone. So through the stress of cooking and black Friday shopping which is now starting on Thursday (I can not figure that one out) Have a Good day and be blessed!

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Happy Thanksgiving

I am Thankful for the rain that falls from the sky even though I get all soggy...I am Thankful for my friends that stop by and all who love me...I am Thankful for the chance to make someone smile and that for a good cause I can go the extra mile.....I am Thankful for my God above who kindness He does show and for all the love He brings and the mercy that I know....I am Thankful for the stars above that shine down so bright and for the Angels that protect me through the night....I am Thankful for the chance to sing even if off key Because God believes what comes from my heart is as pretty as can be.....I am Thankful for all the ones that have fought to make me free from the past to the future and everything in between.....I guess you can say all these rambling things the whole entire point is I am Thankful for everything......Happy Thanksgiving.......

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

just a little something.....

I know I posted about this before but I really liked it....It is a section from my book Just my opinion and I really hope and pray it touches someone's  heart somewhere out there...... P.S. because it is copied and pasted it may look a bit off.....be prepared.

With this week of Thanksgiving I am reminded of what I have and that there are those who have nothing. What I have is not a lot but, there are some with so much less and even when I get frustrated I have to admit at least I have a roof over my head, and a blanket to sleep with, and food for my table so I can feed my kids....there was a time I would have been homeless but God provided in a very lesson learning way. I have always been taught that when we pray we need to be specific and the situation I was in I thought I was being very specific but, God with His ultimate sense of humor was teaching me a well needed lesson instead and boy it took me a while to actually get it.When we were looking at being homeless I prayed to God and said I want a home that has walls facing North, South, East and West and a roof that does not leak....what did I get??? just add wheels and you have it on the nose, a twenty nine foot travel trailer it had the four walls and the roof does not leak....I call it the dreaded dream home....I THOUGHT I was being specific and well God has taught me that I need to be more so....now when I pray for my home I want to buy I am adding as many details to it as I can, so that I can make sure that what I want in a home, is what God will provide. When I ask why? God asks Why Not? It is not my place to ask God why, it is my place to trust that He knows what He is doing and, that I really will be okay. Like I said God has a sense of humor we just do not always "get it" or appreciate it like He does. God uses lessons in our life to help us to focus on Him and the telling people about Him. We need to ask God what we can do for Him and NOT what He can do for us. His name is NOT DUFUR you know....sorry side joke I lived in a small town called Dufur once and the saying was do not ask what can you  Do For Dufur but what can Dufur do for you? Yes it is funny and many people laugh go on I can pause while you laugh your head off.....all right done now? good shall we continue? Great let's go....as I was saying I believe God enjoys a good laugh once in a while, you know how we laugh at our kids? well I am sure God laughs at us too we are such funny people you know......When my family was in the trailer just so we are clear it was four people one over six feet tall and two cats and every time we moved or sneezed we bumped into someone it was cramped. I was so unhappy there and I blamed God for it but, what I did not think of is this God provided a roof for my family and I needed to make the best of it and not the worst of it and I did the latter......So back to blaming God for my situation I just knew He was punishing me and well He was not....instead of being thankful, I was resentful. Instead of knowing God was in control I fought it I would get into Tug Of Wars with God and in the end I ALWAYS ended up in the mud, FACE FIRST trust me I should have had a great complexion with all of the facials I was getting...but instead of learning I was stubborn (still can not figure out where my daughter gets it from) and dug my heels in and fought it every step of the way I made the choice (look it is about choices again) to NOT let go and NOT let God and well.....we all know where I ended up now don't we? I am determined to be thankful for what I have because it could have NOTHING and even then I would hope that I could be thankful.....I look at Job and what he went through it took strength, and courage, and will to make it through all of that and he did it. Not once did he curse God even with his friends urging him to. He stood fast, I would like to say that one day I will have the strength of Job, so I can overcome the trials that get catapulted at me sometimes. I want to be able to stand tall and never waiver in my trust in God. One day I do not know when but, With God on my side I can do all things through Christ it will happen.  It may not be today or tomorrow but there will be a day when I will stand tall in the face of adversity and I will be confidant in knowing that God is right there beside me.....I am still learning I know God is with me but, sometimes still, human nature takes control and I have to fight it to let go. As we go through this week of Thanksgiving really think about it and I bet you will find so much to be thankful for today and everyday of the year.....you know side note I like what I said maybe I will post it in my blog for the day....but remember it is just my opinion.

That's my though for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Leaning on God...

Today I am feeling discombobulated and I am not sure why....I do feel like maybe I am coming down with something and that could explain it all. I am trying to pull myself out of this oh so not a good, feeling off, really want to go to sleep because I do not feel good mood I am in. It is NOT working, let me tell you I wish it were. I am reminded that it is times like these that I need to really lean on my Father God for support, healing and recombobulation. I need to get strength from Him so I can keep going so today I am asking for God's strength, grace, mercy and healing not only for me but for all of you too. Good Night Friends.

That's my though for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Memories....

I was at a Bazaar today, I did not do to well but I had lots of fun. I took my daughter with me and she was the belle of the ball, she had so many people just absolutely LOVE her. I met a lady today who has cancer I wanted to just hold her, she has so many different types of cancer it is only by the grace of God she is still here.  Not that having cancer and still being here when the outlook is not very good is the thing I like but, the fact she looked good she was up and walking and enjoying herself that, I think is what touched me the most. It made me realize that people no matter what, can be positive and have faith even when things look grim. Today was a joy even with the disappointment, I am thankful that I got to go and spend time with my daughter and my friend. It is the little things that make the best memories and it is the little memories that we need to cling to. It has been a long day and I am tired so, Hug your loved ones and cherish every moment you have with them.

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Merry Christmas 37 days early!

I have come to the conclusion that I have come to a conclusion, I just have not figured it out yet, when I do I will let you know. With 37 days left until Christmas the excitement is mounting and I am seeing more and more decorations getting put up and the soft swirling's of the Christmas Spirit are showing up. My prayer list is longer this year for I added the ones that have not grasped what Christmas is all about to it. I recently got an email about Christmas and Easter and how it is all pagan and the jist was not to celebrate it and it went on to say  that with us worshiping other pagan gods, God was not answering our prayers anymore...I DO NOT worship any other god just the 1 true God. So to that I say I do not care about what people say about it because, I celebrate both because Jesus was born and died and rose again for me and everyone else on this planet. That is reason enough to celebrate, and  JESUS is the ONLY reason nothing else.  As for God not answering prayer my opinion on that is there are not enough people praying...God has provided for me when I needed Him to and I pray for others to have their needs met God answers all prayers but sometimes the answer is no....we have to accept that and realize that when God says no He has something else planned and we have to wait for Him. It makes me sad to see so much misery that someone would want to pass it on to another person just to try to make them miserable too. I send you a challenge today tell someone Merry Christmas and spread the Spirit around you just might make them smile. Merry Christmas everyone!!!

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Do I have to???

At my age I am pretty set in how I think and how I do things and when it comes to lessons in life I am not fond of having to go back to school come on I was done with High School 19 years ago who wants to go back? Ok being young did have its advantages but.... I will always be learning with God as my Teacher there will be lessons (much needed ones at times) I need to learn and at this time one of them is learning to let my kids learn,  and there are some choices they must make for themselves I can not do it all for them. As a mom it breaks my heart to see my kids hurting my mama bear complex just rears it's head and wants to come roaring out to protect them but, there are times I have to let go and let them learn and figure out what they are going to do. It is no fun I hate feeling helpless while my child is hurting but, if I keep protecting them from everything they will not learn for themselves how to do it...I know I must sound like a broken record....there are no parenting classes to prepare us for this, there is no breathing exercise to ease the discomfort of it so How do I just let it go? God has a way of saying shhhh it will be okay...remember I am holding them they are not alone. so as I just watch and pray and hurt for my children their Heavenly Father is walking, holding and catching them when they fall. My kids have the perfect Guardian so why do I still feel so helpless? because I am human, mom, lover of my kids, fierce protector that wants to make it all better all of the time and I can not do that because I would hinder them from growing....there comes a time where I have to let go. God knows, He is there, He will walk with them. My job now is to love them, pray for them and give guidance to them while they still live at home. This is preparing them for their life and I have to accept that one day my nest will be empty and that will come all to soon. awww the lessons we must learn so difficult yet so important.....I must be taught so I can teach....

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

When Life Gives You Lemons.....

When life gives you lemons there are a number of culinary delights you can make out of them. The lemon is sour and makes you pucker up so much it makes you see things at a different angle but, add a little sweetness to it that pucker can turn into the most pleasant of smiles. I have to say when we get pelted by lemons they can leave some nasty bruises and sometimes they will drag us down. I have had plenty of lemons thrown at me and I let them beat me up to the point that I saw no point in wanting to even try. When we reach that point in our lives it is hard to want to come back from it but, God has other plans for us and when we get pelted instead of taking it we need to yell FOOD FIGHT!!!! and start throwing it all back. satan will throw anything and everything he can at us, he will play every dirty trick in the book on us just to get us to give up. As a child of God I can not let that happen it took me a long time to see that but, now I give it all to God I try to anyway it has gotten easier to do. Do I still get down? Sure but, I do not stay down, not anymore. I LOVE to cook so when I get lemons I make something sweet out of them or at least I try to. God is the sweet that takes away the tart in our lives and with lemons come challenges, with challenges comes determination, with determination comes the strength to press forward and to let God take control of the cooking and when we let go of that spoon our Teacher will whip up our lemon into something quite tasty. Don't give up We face things everyday of our lives God is our lifeline when it seems we have none. The unknown is scary that is when trust comes into play God sees and knows all so when Life gives you lemons start cooking baby!!!

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Cup of Joe?

My kids drink coffee....yes I know I am nuts but, that has already been established so that is nothing new. Anyway my son being ADHD it calms him down my daughter being 9 it hypes her up but, hey that is the teachers problem now huh...I know that sounds rude but, how many times does the school pump the kids full of sugar and then SEND THEM HOME??? ok I know it is not nice but, coffee helps her get going in the morning and that is a huge help for me. We top our coffee with Frill (whip cream) and today both kids did a face plant in it and came up all white and extra sweet. It is the little things like this morning that bring pleasure to our world. I like the happy mornings when the kids cooperate and get up and do what they are supposed to do it starts the day out right. What about having the early morning cup of Joe with God? I am thinking that even though God probably does not drink coffee, He would REALLY love you to drink your's with Him. I do that, I will get up and grab my oh so needed cup, and fill it with my oh so wonderful eggnog, and top it with that light fluffy stuff and just breath it in then, I converse with God. It starts my day on the right foot and it helps me get my kids day started right too...a little Chat in the morning makes a huge difference for the day. I need this time with God to get things into perspective, clear my head and pray for my friends and family. I can tell a huge difference when I do not pray my day just is an epic Flop!!! SOOOO Tis the season for eggnog lattes and chats with our Father....PRAYER it does a body good!

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Please and Thank You

I read a status on FaceBook today and it said (the jist of it at least) it is not true that life keeps throwing one thing after another but, it is the same thing over and over. I replied I hear you there but, one thing I am figuring out is, if it is one thing over and over then there is a lesson God wants us to learn and, if I want to move forward I better learn it quick but, that is just my opinion. I feel that if we keep moving over the same ground and passing the same landmarks then maybe, we need to look at the situation and wear the knees out of our pants talking to God. We get going in our life and sometimes we forget about that chat with God we need to have on a daily basis. God will lead us where He wants us to go but, first we need to learn to read the road map a little better. When we are at "school" our Teacher wants us to pay attention and sometimes when we get distracted we get put into detention until we can listen. Our sinner nature likes to kick in and we find ourselves frustrated,  worried and heart broken and we try to deal with it on our own, instead of letting it go and letting God take over. With the Holidays rapidly approaching and we kick it into high gear and our focus is dragged to everything flowing around us do not forget to hold on to the hand of God so in those overwhelming, maddening, heartbreaking, stressful and chaotic moments you can be teachable, let God show you how to maneuver around the obstacles safely so you do not end up flat on your face. I can honestly say I have had some trying moments lately and sometimes I just want to throw in the towel and give up but, I remind myself that if I did that satan would win and I do not want that to happen. I can not promise you it will be easy life never is but, I will say you can find peace in God and His embrace if you will just let go and let God catch you. I have said before God is our safety net He will never fail us even when humans do. I understand that trusting God is something our sinner nature has a hard time with but, if you can allow your heart to really trust, God can minister to you and His touch is overwhelmingly beautiful. My heart breaks for those who are hurting and I wish I could take the pain away I find that I can not but, God can, I am finding that out for myself and it has taken a really lone time. I am eternally thankful for the pure simple fact that God wants to help us all we have to do is ask. If it were not for that juicy little tidbit I would be hopelessly lost. The Bible says in Matthew 7 ASK and it WILL be given, SEEK and you WILL find KNOCK and the door WILL be opened (paraphrasing here) now I do not believe God will say yes to everything because, He has a will for our lives and if what we are asking is not in the blueprints for our life then God will say no but, I firmly believe He will say yes to resolution of problems, taking away fear and bringing peace to our hearts. Just remember when asking for something to say Please and Thank You.

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

What can I give?

I found out today that the local station that plays Christmas Music 24/7 starting in November started and I am so incredibly happy about that. Some are dreading it and saying get past Thanksgiving first but, what better way to start the Holidays than with Christmas music? To let people know hey we are here what are we going to give this year?That is a question I hope a lot of people ask themselves....What can I give? instead of what am I going to get? On Friday my kids and I did operation give a flower and the residents LOVED it. the look of pure joy as they were waiting for their lunches when we handed them a flower was the coolest thing in the entire day, even the men liked the flowers. I hope as we do this every month my kids will see what giving is like and maybe they will see what they can give instead of asking what am I going to get? yes short and sweet but,

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Need prayer? Just ask and I will pray!

I am feeling tired and I do not wish to continue but, press on I must to get through this time. God is by my side He knows what is happening He will continue to walk beside me. I am on a road and the destination is unknown I have some fear of the uncertain yet, I push on. I know that this trial will pass and I once again will feel like myself but, as of now I am relying totally on my Savior, my King, my Lord, My God. I will persevere and I am determined satan will not win. Though I walk through this valley I will fear no evil because God is with me, carrying me. I know my trial is not the same as others but, it is real and big to me, I am thankful for my friends and family who pray and love me. What ever you are going through bring it to God, bring it to me and I too will pray. For God has not given us the spirit of fear, or of hardship or of hard times but, He gives us power and love to overcome. satan comes to steal to kill and to destroy do not let him win. My friends nothing is to big for God so whether it is a physical thing like mine, or financial, or with a friend or family member remember this, God wants you to come to Him. I give thanks to God, and He shall provide for all of our needs. Let someone pray for you the power of prayer is a mighty thing and I want to pray for you.

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

In God We Trust!

Today is a day to say Thank You to all of our past present and future Veterans. Without them we would not have our freedom. I see the saying our freedom is not free that is so very true. As we go Our One Nation under God is becoming divided and we are not all under God anymore. It saddens me to see the violence, gangs the prejudices surrounding our country. I think Our founding Fathers never imagined that this would happen. What happened to America?  We need to stand United and strong knowing God is in our land otherwise Our Veterans fought and are fighting for nothing. No one likes war but, war happens, not everyone will like who is leading our Country so pray for them but, we are FREE because of the men and women that represent us as a nation the ones that are giving their lives the ultimate sacrifice for us. I challenge you to take a moment and say Thank You, say a prayer and keep believing In God We Trust!

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Lessons Learned

All my hard work is gone...My daughter, thinking she was helping with my story deleted it. I write a lot of times without knowing what I am writing until I am done. I can not recover my story, I am so disappointed but, I understand accidents happen, getting angry will not bring it back. I guess I can try again and maybe I will but, for the contest I am not sure if reaching 50,000 will happen. I realize that disappointments happen in life and how we handle them makes a huge difference. God does not always give us the answer we are looking for and in this case my daughter found that out. She prayed I would not find out but, I did, she was so upset I just wanted to hug her and tell it is ok. God gives us lessons in our life and in this case there is one for the both of us. I learned that getting angry will not bring it back and probably make her feel worse than she already does. The lesson I think she learned in this is God will answer prayer just not always how we want. Two very valuable lessons learned. I pray it is lessons that we will not have to relearn. Yes I could have gotten incredibly angry, rightfully so (my opinion here) but, I did not. I hope she learned that God is always there even if the answer is no. I have to say in the past I would have lost my temper and yelled to get my frustration out but, the end result would have been disastrous and that is not what I want. So I get it...I will write the book maybe not for NANOWRIMO but, it will be written and, by the grace of God it will be better then before. I love my daughter she does things that drive me crazy but, most of the time her heart is in the right place and that is all I can ask for.

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Welcome to the family

During this month of Thanksgiving I am finding myself reflecting on a lot of things but, one in particular stands out among the others. In the last 20 months so much has happened in my life that has affected a lot of things. When I was in my car accident in March last year and I was injured my entire world as I knew it changed. I am undecided as to whether it is for the good or...not. I had a lot of people tell me I was faking my injuries and my hubby was one of them (let me tell you that hurt) I have to say they do not know me very well at all do they? I was getting treatments, I had to see an IME (independent medical examiner), get an MRI and by the way I am totally claustrophobic so, I had to be given a Valium, and that my friends made me higher than a kite all day long. But, it got me through the MRI oh ya and Christmas music did too, my PIP stopped paying for treatment but, there is still money that could have been paid out so now, I have medical bills in collections because I do not have the money to pay them. I had to get Physical Therapy (which DID NOT work) and stop getting treated at the end of January of this year. I have been in a lot of pain since then. In February I was officially unemployed because I am not allowed to lift more than 15 pounds, a job that I have had almost 8 years and it is gone. Let's not forget that I almost bled to death from an injection I got because I was told I needed to. After all of that I am still going now, I have been told I have RA and I have hives that are driving me NUTS....God has a plan in all of this, I have yet to see it but, I trust He does. There are lessons to be learned and I am not going to let this get to me. I am REFUSING to let satan win this. I guess my whole point is this, no matter what comes our way God is our shield always. I could have had a much worse accident, I could have more bills piling up and I could even after all the tests still have people say I am faking it. I want to say that it would not matter to me at all but, I am not sure I can say that I am human after all. What has changed? I have, and only by the grace of God. I have said in the past I am not Job, I am not strong enough, but, I don't have to be. God is my strength and He will carry me when I can not go on,. God is there for you, He LOVES you so much in fact He sent Jesus to die for you so you can live, He WANTS you. It does not matter what you have done, or where you are in your life right now. He only cares about you coming to His loving arms, and letting Him forgive you, and love you, and give you the strength to keep putting one foot in front of the other. Will you come to Him now? Will you let Him hold your hand? Will you allow God to give you peace? Then please pray this prayer with me. Father God, I am coming humbly to you, Please forgive me of my sins, come into my heart, fill my life with you, help me to walk with you Thank you for sending your son to die for me so that I might live, in Jesus name AMEN....Welcome to the family of God.

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Allergic to sin....

I am allergic to something and I am not sure what it is. I broke out in some pretty annoying hives yesterday and I am pumping my body with antihistamines to see if it will help. It does to a point I was able to sleep last night but, this morning they seem to be popping back up and bothering me again. If they don't get better I will be going to the Dr.... To figure out what is causing it will be a difficult task and I may not ever figure it out. Sin is like hives.....when we sin it bugs us, annoys us and makes what we did very much present in our minds where we can not seem to shake it....(at least it should but, just my opinion here). It nags at us, it makes itself known and may even drive us crazy the only way to get rid of it, is confessing our sin and asking for forgiveness for that sin. Otherwise, like the hives you will scratch at it trying to make it feel better and it will only get worse. There is no pill you can take to cure your conscience, or salve that can be put on it to relieve the symptoms of sin. Sin will spread and bug us until we are either numb to it, (and that is just sad) or it drives us to our knees begging God to forgive us. If we become numb to sin then, we are out of touch with God and, unless we turn around and climb back up that mountain out of the pit we are in, chances are we wont until we do not have a thread of rope to hang on to. We make choices, we can choose to climb or, we can let go and fall.....I want to climb I like knowing I am allergic to sin....we try to stay away from things we are allergic to....I know I do anyway, what about you?

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Do you drag your feet?

The smell of coffee is drifting in the air, the sounds of it finishing brewing is such a sweet sound. The first cup of coffee so warm and smooth just waiting to be swallowed and savored, there is nothing quite like it. Closing your eyes as you first sip it and enjoying the warmth as it coats your throat, embracing the quiet of the morning and.....then it is time to get the kids up......and the circus begins. The words every kid hates to hear "It's time to get up" and we push them and push them, they give a little attitude and finally drag themselves out of their warm cozy cocoons only, to keep dragging the appendages attached to their legs. By the time they are out the door you are well on your way to going gray or bald or BOTH.....it has struck me that with God we are a lot like our kids. He wants us to do something and we drag our feet, groan about it, complain and throw some attitude around. Unlike us God keeps His cool and "getting us out the door" may tend to be a task in it self but, God has infinite patience and He don't lose His cool. God gets what He wants and He does not take no for an answer. One difference is world war 3 never happens when God says it is time to get up, we only think it does because we are the ones dragging our feet. I do not want to drag my feet I want to jump in with both feet and say here I am God send me! Wherever He sends me I will go I may not want to but, when my Father speaks I want to listen. Do you?


That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

So no worries then?

I have been in a really bad mood....yes I said bad, I am thinking the disappointment of not getting the job I applied for had a hand in it. I also believe that satan had his hand in my crankiness and, I DON"T like that!!! This morning I prayed and asked God to help me to get out of this funk I am in. My kids felt my mood and it is not fair of me to be cranky towards them. The thing I keep telling myself and I know it to be true is, God will provide He always does. I am feeling better now and I am prayerfully hoping that I can be myself with my family today. As I ponder what lies ahead for my life and I wonder which direction God will send me, I will continue living, loving, laughing and praying for those around me and far away. Philippians 4:19 says And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus. (NKJ) God knows.....it is not my place to worry so I am determined not to. Christmas is 49 days away and I am so very excited, I have a bazaar coming up that I am looking forward to. God is great even when life aint good.....but, even with all the trials and problems that arise, life is always good when we have God and, I am forever thankful for that.

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Hmmm The moods I am in....

I am writing a book for NANOWRIMO and it is slightly on the difficult side I am on chapter 1 and it is called oh the moods I am in and I am talking about the different moods we can experience and how they are contagious and how they can come so fast you won't know what hit you kinda like the swine flu a couple of years ago. I am going through some of the different types of moods and it has been an interesting experience to actually write about the things I have gone through and letting me out.....I have to say God has done a lot in me and I am seeing myself and the world around me in a whole new light it is kind of cool. God will always be working on me and for that I am forever thankful I am not a lost cause, the fact is no one is. No matter what we see God sees something entirely different in us. To God I am worth it and that is all that should matter but, our sinner nature shows up and we want to be worth it to the worlds standards and frankly the worlds standards are not worth it to me I want to try to live up to Gods standards which are so much higher then the worlds and so much better. In God I trust, He is the one I need to live for, His opinion is the only one that should matter yes we want to impress I know I do...every time I make a cheesecake I want it to be perfect I WANT people to like them and yes to like me....I know I am good at what I do I want to make people happy I want people to say good job but, honestly I should not want it at all but, it makes me feel good. I guess feeling good is not such an awful thing as long as I keep God as the number one in all things. God will not let me down, people will maybe not intentionally but, they will.

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

A little of this and a little of that.....but just a little

I started a contest, did you know that November is National Novel Writing Month? NANOWRIMO  is a contest for those someday I will write a book writers....I have done it a few times and actually "won". 50.000 words in 30 days quite the accomplishment the prize? Knowing you finished the contest and either have a completed book or an almost completed book. I Love to write and I started my book so we shall see where it goes from there. I am praying for the hand of God to guide me in all of my writings. I am thankful that God is a a merciful God and full of grace so He can show me those things, so I can turn around and show them to my family...AKA my kids. Everyday I am in awe of what God does for us from the little things to the HUGE. This year I want to give back, I want to help someone or give something and hopefully make the Holidays better. Operation give a flower is coming next Friday, I am excited for it my kids seem to love talking to the people and making them smile. It says in 2 Corinthians that God loves a cheerful giver, this month and next giving is what I am going to try and do. I know this is short and sweet and all over the place but I ask that you be thankful and give it does a heart good.

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Love....do you have it?

Today I am thankful that God controls my life, He knows my future, He knows what is around the bend that I can not see. Why worry about the unknown? Worry is letting God know you are not quite ready to trust Him (just my opinion). As I ponder that and drink my peppermint mocha flavored coffee I am wondering what to write again and, Love pops into my mind. There are different kinds of love but, one particular type jumps up and waves its letters and yells PICK ME!!!! So I am. My daughter has been having a hard time at school. There is the new girl who asked her to be friends and K really does not want to. I told her that God wants us to love everyone even if we do not want to. Philia Love~is the kind of love which makes us wish to support others in their good or bad (yes I know I said bad) times. My understanding is this is friendship love or brotherly love.Ok ok I know I said 1 but, another love pops also and I can not resist it, I have to talk about it too. Agape Love~ is unconditional love, I believe this is the love we should strive to have for others because God loves us unconditionally but, I understand it can be hard to achieve this kind of love, especially with so much hate in the world today (again just my opinion). So what kind of love do I teach K and my son H to have? Well I am thinking both should be taught but, they will be the ones to choose. For now I think I will teach the Philia Love or (my word for it) Friendship Love. In 1 John 4: 7-8 it says Beloved, let us love on another, for love is of God; and everyone who loves is born of God and knows God. He who does not love does not know God, for God is love. (NKJ) So if God is love, then we must have love for others it seems clear to me, in order to truly be in God we must love and sometimes that is just so hard to do.....sinner nature rearing its (dare I say ugly?) head. It is a commandment though in John 13: 34-35 it says A new COMMANDMENT I give to you, that you love one another; as I have loved you, that you also love one another. By this all will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another. (NKJ) As a parent it is my job to teach my kids what they need to know with the help of God and I believe this is an important lesson to learn. All of the hate and violence in the world that surrounds us tends to overrule any love out there. I have to look at myself and ask Do I love? How can I teach my kids to love if I do not love myself? I issue a love challenge to you go out into your world (that is where you live or work) and find someone to love whether it is Agape or Philia your choice.. Love is a choice no one can force us to love, even in our marriages or in our families we have to choose to love even when we do not feel it. So I must look at myself and fix in me the way I love so I can teach my kids to love, as for K we will keep praying for the new girl and hopefully prayerfully achieve love for her too.

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

God is the same Yesterday, Today and FOREVER!

As I start today I am remembering my cousin, she was my best friend and only a year older then me. She passed away 5 years ago today. I am saddened because I miss her but, I am rejoicing because she is dancing with the Angels. I will always remember her in my heart.

The Christmas lights are coming nicely I got my candy cane lights up yesterday and today we do the porch I am loving it oh so much. This morning it is below freezing and we will be walking to school in it. I love my walks on a crisp clear mornings they always make me feel alive when I am done. Christ is like that too, when we accept Him into our hearts The feeling of being alive is all to real and it sends tingles all through me. when I am worshiping I feel like God is hugging me and that is the best feeling in the world. God is always there He will carry us through hard times, especially when we think we can not go on. There are so many things in this world that change nothing of this world is guaranteed BUT, (and yes that is a BIG one) God ALWAYS STAYS THE SAME He will never change. God is the 1 constant we can count on and I am truly grateful for that. Hebrews 13:8 says Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today and FOREVER. (NKJ). as we go through life and changes are swirling around us remember our solid rock and hold on to Him for your life.

That's my thoughts for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Month of Thanksgiving....

As we enter November the month of Thanksgiving Let us remember the weary and down trodden and hold them up in prayer like Colossians 4:2 says Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful (NIV). I am Thankful for the blessings God has given to me and my family I challenge you to be thankful for something everyday in November and see how you feel at the end of it. In Psalm 100:4 it says Enter His gates with thanksgiving and His courts with praise; Give thanks to Him and praise His name. (NIV) When we come with a thankful heart we can see the work of God's hand more clearly (just my opinion) and appreciate what we see. It saddens me to see homeless families, lonely people and angry people, they need someone to love them enough to show them God. I want my life to reflect what what Colossians 3:15-16 says.....Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as you sing Psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God. (NIV) Being thankful is something we do willingly and from our hearts if we do not have a willing heart then we do not have a thankful heart (just my opinion again). I find life in general more pleasant when I have my heart in the right place...sure I have times when I am not real happy, especially when it seems like one bad thing after another is rolling in like relentless waves but, keeping my eyes on God and thanking Him for what is going right (what my idea of right is anyway) I have found myself at peace. Give thanks with a grateful heart everyday and pray for those around and see what God has in store.

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas