Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Count Your Blessings~

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year all, it has been a bit since I have written but, I thought this day being the last day we will ever see in 2013 I should.

I have to say this year went really fast it seems like only yesterday we started and today we are saying goodbye. I have struggled quite a bit this year my faith has been shaken but, I stood strong with the help from some of my friends and most importantly God. I have faced challenges I am unsure of, I have experienced yet again the lack of space in my home. I am currently with out a car and my son has newly been diagnosed with Aspergers and I am dealing with an emotional 12 year girl who is trying to figure life out (I was there once I really hope I was not this extreme with my mom) with all of that, I look back and see where God carried me and I am eternally thankful. I am a firm believer in claiming things in my life , in my faith in so much and for 2014 I am claiming for my family Joy, peace, happiness, and more. I am claiming the seed of a thankful heart and a joyful countenance to grow and blossom in the hearts of my family and myself. I am claiming good things to happen for us, I am claiming direction and guidance for my life for my children and my Husband. I am claiming more of God and less of me, I am claiming Gods provision and blessings in the coming year. I am claiming wisdom, strength, courage, grace, and humbleness. I am going to count my blessings instead of dwell on the one thing after another that seems to happen. I am going to disown Murphy and ignore his law. I am claiming joy, blessings, hope, love, peace, kindness for all of you as well. When school starts back and I am volunteering, I am going to make a blessings jar, so that during the year I can write down with the date everything good that has happened and exactly one year from today, I am going to read them. I offer a challenge to you today do not resolve to do anything claim it, pray about it and let God lead you where He wants you to go. start a blessing jar and watch it fill up. God be with you as you start the New Year, what ever challenges come up, let God help you to face them He will.....Count your blessings my friends Happy New Year.

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas,

Saturday, November 30, 2013

Reminiscing.....

Just a really short and sweet post I have today, I was going through old posts and saw my version of the night before Christmas and I wanted to re-share it here I hope you enjoy it.

Friday, November 29, 2013

The Christmas light in the dark......

There is a heaviness that has settled upon our Country like a thick fog, it is hard to see and navigate our lives with it. All over there are people who are struggling with so many different things, depression, anger, hopelessness, grief, loss of income, home, car. What ever it is the overwhelming heaviness has made it's presence well known. With the Holidays upon us it gets heavier, this year seems to be no exception. I have even felt it's pull a little and my first thought is just let go and go with the flow but, I do not like going with the flow per say, I tend to do things that are not the norm and in this I am determined to do just that. I want to be a light in the fog, and of course it has to be a Christmas light shining oh so beautifully bright. I am just one but, if people decided to stand with me one light at a time and shine with all of their hearts maybe we could shine through the fog and become the light in the dark. It is time to stand and take back our Country blow away the fog and allow some joy to come back and say hello. It is sad that joy has been sucked out and replaced with so many negative feelings. God wants us to be the light in the dark and I am asking you to shine with me and bring some hope back into the lives of people around us. Find joy in little things find something to be grateful for in the bad and realize there are so many out there who are far worse off. That my friends is a lesson I am learning myself, Not an easy one for sure but if you learn it well maybe it will not have to be relearned. I am no Job but I have had my share of trials and I still am but, God is my strength and I am determined to tirelessly shine!

Merry Christmas

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Monday, October 7, 2013

The things we say!

So I had a gentleman from the UK messaging me on FB I read the messages to my husband and he said he seems like a nice guy. Me being me and unsure of what a pen pal does or says mistook some things and well opened my mouth. I have big feet and I am proud of them but, not so much when I insert them into my mouth. I am afraid I may have upset him since I have not heard from him in a few days. With all of that said here we go............when we speak we need to think, if we do not, words we do not mean may very well slip out and feelings can be hurt. and sometimes sorry is not enough. unfortunately I am all to familiar with this and have lost a friend before because of it. I am insecure I admit it I do not like to be but, I am and I am praying that with the help of God I can become secure with him by my side. I have to just let go of the reins and let God take charge. There are so many aspects of life where we feel we must be in control but, we need to let go and that can be so hard to do. Sigh I need to work through feelings and thoughts before I start to speak or type maybe I can make that a goal for the new year. May God Bless you all and bring you Peace.

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Saturday, September 14, 2013

Blind Trust

***WHY*** A word I have never thought to actually find out the definition to. You who read this know I am in to definitions so today I looked it up. Merriam Webster defines why as~ For what reason or purpose, it is used to offer a suggestion or to say that a course is not necessary, it is also used to express irritation or annoyance....ok so two of the three kinda pertain to my topic today. I chatted with a friend on FB last night and we were talking about an amazing little boy with DIPG (it is a brain cancer that is not operable and there is no cure and it is just so sad, I have two friends who had children go to Heaven because of this monster) he had an MRI last week and the tumor had shrunk to smaller then when he was diagnosed. We pray it is God healing him and not a delayed response to treatment. which brought up the question why??? My daughter who loves Jesus with everything in her asked me but, seems to have a problem with understanding why God does what He does she asked "mom WHY is God healing him and He didn't heal Aiden who had lots of people praying for him too?" That is one question I have asked myself, my friend was telling me that she asked the same question when it came to her son and she told me this, a friend told her "we don't get to know WHY, BUT, we are to trust God with it" BLIND TRUST people. In everything about our lives we have to T-R-U-S-T yes that five letter word a word that I am guessing most have a problem with. We can sometimes get angry at God and scream WHY at Him but, honestly the answer is not ours to know at least not for now. Instead of a Trusting God anonymous we should form a Trusting God unanimous. Our life is not complete we are always growing and changing and our lives touch others. We affect lives we touch even if we do not mean to.....and if we put our TRUST in God our lives can have purpose and meaning. The question should not be Why??? but, Why not?

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Thursday, August 29, 2013

God's Strength

8 Concerning this thing I pleaded with the Lord three times that it might depart from me. 9 And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness". Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmity's, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ's sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong. 2 Corinthians 12:8-10

It never ceases to amaze me what little promises I find in the Bible. When life throws you lemons make cheesecake, when the curve ball comes so unexpectedly swing at it and hit it out of the park....when we feel weak let Him who is strong carry us. In life, in death, in things going wrong in every way we can see, from cars, jobs, money or the lack of it, family to friends. Whatever is in our path we can take it with stride....we may not like it, it may hurt us, we may feel like giving up, we may feel to weak to carry on but, carry on we will with God's strength helping us through. I will be honest my life is far from easy but, there are others who have it harder than I do. The strength I have seen from them can only come from God. I admire their faith and if I can have just an ounce of the faith they have I will be good. Pray for one another, ask for God's help and strength because He is more than willing to give it......




That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Yesterday, Today and Tomorow

As Summer is coming to a close and we say hello to Fall I have been doing some deep thinking.....about life, the past, the present and the future. I have been some what grumpy and last week I told my kids I needed to be grounded so....my daughter grounded me for a week from FB and TV. I must admit I have been going crazy with FB withdrawals, with that said I am admitting I am addicted to FB and need to take a break so when my grounding lifts on Saturday I will continue to take a break from it. I hope!!!! The exact reason for my brain to go into thinking overdrive and well some not so happy memories came with it. I am coming up on a year of when I lost a friend (not in the way you must be thinking right now) One I had thought was a good friend things were said I over reacted and well.......I have apologized with no forgiveness and I will say I miss her terribly with no chance of contact that I know of. So, I am just left wondering and missing and hoping for one day.....but, I guess only time will tell and maybe that one day will consist of my heart not hurting anymore. That is in the past we can not change the past or the choices we made but, we can move forward in the present and if we are willing God can guide us in a direction of less pain and distraction. With that said, to us as humans our present may not be what we want it to be....I know I am in a less than stellar situation but, I have a roof that does not leak, 4 walls that face North, South, East and West and I am praying for a day when my floor does not need wheels to support it. I can some what choose my present I can choose to Thank God and not yell at Him, I can choose to be happy for what I have and try not to sweat the small stuff, I can help others if I can and not compare myself with others, (all that will do is make me angry and cry and that is no fun at all.) As for the future all I have to say about that is, only God knows!!!!!  I am confidant that God has something really great in store for my family and myself and that gives me hope for my life, I have faith that God is providing and I love the fact that no matter what I do God has and will forgive me Yesterday, today and tomorrow....

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Monday, August 19, 2013

Vows or something to that effect.....

I am sitting here listening to classical Christmas music as I write this, drinking my peppermint mocha coffee and I am thinking....(now that can be a good thing, and at times I totally over think and get myself in trouble lol). Never the  less I am thinking, about the end of summer, the beginning of school and the Holiday season is just right around the corner. With saying good byes and saying hellos it can get a little discombobulating at times. With all this said I am jumping ahead to New Years and what that brings. Since we have some time before that happens it will give you time to think......We finished Leviticus yesterday we will be moving on to Numbers and I have to say my Pastor makes the Old Testament so interesting I am enjoying it a lot. (I know this seems a far cry from New Years but I promise I will tie it together). Worship what is it? the Merriam Websters online dictionary has 4 meanings for the word. 1. (chiefly British): A person of importance-used as a title for various officials such as magistrates and some mayors. 2.reverence offered a divine being or supernatural power; also: an act of expressing such reverence. 3. a form of religious practice with its creed and ritual. 4. extravagant respect or admiration for or devotion to an object. Wow I am not sure I like any of them but, it is not my place to judge just to live my life and worship My God and only Him....just sayin....My Pastor said it in a different way that I really like so if I got the basic gist of it here it is Worship~ the bowing of OUR will to Gods....What does this mean to me??? We bow ourselves down so that God's will can work in us. Plain and simple I like simple...so why do we as Humans make it so difficult??? So back to Leviticus 27 it was talking about vows (ahhhh here we go with New Years). A person could "vow" something to God and the priest would then place a value on whatever was vowed, whether it was plant, animal or human. If something was vowed to God it could be gotten back but, the value plus interest had to be paid....my Pastor also made the comment some people are better at making promises than they are at keeping them it seems a bit harsh but, it is totally true.....often when we are in crisis mode we make promises to God do we keep them???? What about promises to our friends, our kids, our spouse or other half??? When we make a vow, promise or  resolution do we make them with a pure heart or pure intentions? When we make a promise do we intend to keep it??? I certainly hope so but, there are times when something beyond our control comes up and we are then forced to break the promise.....If you make a promise it is wrong to break the  promise....people will understand  or at least one would hope they would if plans had to change and, it makes it better to "make it up to them". If you can not keep your word make other arrangements...we expect God to keep His word we should really keep ours....here is another tid-bit from my pastor "it is the expectation of God's character" my opinion we need to be Christ like if we expect God to be God we need to strive to have a Christ like Character. Have you ever been compelled to give yourself wholly to God? To let God control EVERYTHING in your life have you vowed to live for Him alone??? Making vows, promises, resolutions or what ever a promise is a promise even to yourself. As we start looking at the end of the year coming, think about it all around and if you make plans for next  year make sure they are ones you can keep because disappointing yourself is no fun either. I challenge you to start with God and commit, vow or something to that effect now, don't wait.

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Where are you Christmas????

I recently did Relay for Life in my county, I have done it now for the past 3 years being Captain each time. I want to make a difference so I do what I can to make that happen. Most by now know how much I LOVE Christmas and it is no secret at Relay either. I had my heart ripped out and stomped on and it trickled down to my daughter, by people I had thought were my friends, all because of Christmas. I had to ask myself what would Jesus want me to do and the obvious answer was forgive them so, I did. I also held my head down every time I went past their site and avoided them at all costs....my sinner nature would have taken over and said something to them and that would have made it worse. In the morning I was stopped by two of them they apologized to me and gave me a hug. One said she was sorry for not sticking up for me and that she loved me. It made my very tired heart smile and if you know what Relay for Life is you will understand tired.

Today I am going to ask you a question what is Christmas really? Today, I am going to answer that question from my point of view. According the the Merriam Webster online dictionary Christmas means *Christian feast on December 25 or among Eastern Orthodox Christians January 7 that commemorates the birth of Christ and is usually observed as a legal holiday. Oh that is so dictionaryish isn't it? So to put it in simple words Christmas is about Christ.

The whole feeling that surrounds Christmas the peace, joy, goodwill towards men, love, kindness, giving I can keep going here if I really need to. But, I believe that is something we should do EVERYDAY not just for a season. When the Holiday is over people put Christmas away and it seems they put Christ away too.... the feelings get stored away with the lights, decorations and tree. Where did it all go?? in the basement, attic or garage but, Why? I celebrate Christmas everyday because I never want to forget to live Jesus and spread His love everyday. Christmas is not about presents or it is not supposed to be. Christmas is about Loving the unloved, being kind to those who don't get kindness, giving joy to those who are sad, having goodwill towards all man, woman and child no matter what time of year it is.  It breaks my heart that people forget that, no matter what we may be going through someone else is going through something too, whether it is worse or not it is still a hardship, stress and heartache for them. Everything in me is asking Where are you Christmas???? Why are you so hard to find? and Why can't people just believe in the feelings of Christmas to live them all year long? The answer to that is something I may never know. So please do me a favor, if you see someone who loves Christmas, don't criticize them, just enjoy their giving spirit and let them spread some cheer.




That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas.







Monday, August 5, 2013

My year of Jubilee!!

Yesterday my Pastor spoke about Leviticus 25 the Sabbath, weekly, yearly and the super Sabbath the year of Jubilee. He spoke about the Israelites and how they expected their trek in the wilderness to be a short one , and it WASN'T. All of the laws given were to begin in the Promised Land. Just a brief rundown here, every six years God wanted the land to rest a year so, the seventh year would have no planting no harvest just rest. In order for that to happen He would provide an abundance in the sixth year so they would not have to "worry about it". After six days we rest, after six years the land rests and after seven times of resting we come to the year of Jubilee...there is 3 years yes I said 3 years of no harvest. God provides in the sixth year before Jubilee for 3 years here is the catch, there is this little thing called faith. In our daily lives we are challenged in everything to have faith in God, to trust Him for our needs but, do we? Not always at least I don't. I am weary, frustrated and run down my faith is shaken to be honest with you. I am technically homeless yes I have the trailer but, when I turn I run in to something or someon. We have 4 people, 2 cats, 2 Guinea pigs and 4 rabbits of course some of the rabbits live outside so that helps. I have pain everyday among other issues going on health wise, cars that do not want to run, no home, and stress of money or the lack of it. One thing I realized today is I need to TRUST in God to know it will be ok. I am tired I want to give up but, I won't because my year of Jubilee is coming and I am looking forward to it. One day and God only knows when I will get my rest. I encourage all of you that want to give up to NOT give up, God will give you rest if you ask Him. Now Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. Hebrews 11:1 NKJ

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Monday, June 17, 2013

Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda!!!

 I have been having a variety of feelings, emotions and thoughts not only in my awake time but in my sleep time as well. It makes for a restless night, I have been thinking a lot about my past choices and what I could have done differently. If I had the insight I would have gone a different direction, I know I should have held my tongue or spoke up in times I said things or not said things I should or shouldn't  have. I have a case of the Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda's. We all get those at times and I am thinking there has got to be  better way to deal with them then letting doubt, regret, and every other negative thing the devil can throw our way. Once the lies come rolling in if we do not stand up and say NO the devil can take hold real quick and we go on a very unpleasant ride. Our ONE saving grace is God our Father, King and Savior. We turn to Him and let go of our sinner nature and let Him have control we can get through this. Now I have been having dreams about a certain situation and I am not sure I can control them I have often wondered how do I say stop to those? well I believe that if you just start your day with prayer then the residue will wash away kinda like a morning shower. Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda never goes anywhere good so say goodbye to them and say hello to God and what He has planned for you. satan will try to hold you with lies But God will hold you with truth only if you let Him. I leave you with a song by Matthew West that spoke to me the first time I heard it have a blessed day all.

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Saturday, May 18, 2013

Have you been erased?

I admit I am struggling a lil bit in some areas and, I really try not to. I am working on letting go and it is ripping my heart out....I have been erased from someone's life and it hurts I cry, I get sad and it plain sucks! Try as I might to just walk away from it there is always a reminder just lurking around the corner, waiting to jump out and yell surprise I am going to make you cry today. Recently I was unfriended on facebook only, so I am told. All because of pages I follow. I support the parents of terminally ill kids some with cancer and some not. I pray, cry and send hugs and hopefully encouragement to the families and kids themselves. I was told the parents are being selfish and I was deleted. I admit it crushed me,we still text and talk but it feels different to me. I admit I am the queen of drama as much as I dislike it and I could be totally off about it. My point I guess is this I need to learn to rise above it and let God take the reins. No matter who may erase me I know God NEVER WILL. I also know that you can not completely erase someone from your life there will always be something that will shout hey remember this person? In the mean time my feelings are my feelings and I need to let them go so God can heal my heart and help me to move on....ya easier said than done but like with any other challenging thing in life it will take determination and will power to so no to me and yes to God and His will in my life so I can rise above and keep on moving. Whether you have been erased, deleted, washed out or unfriended remember God is there always and will not leave you, He will be the constant in your life and that my friends is just way cool!

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Chrismas

Friday, April 26, 2013

Dream Dream Dream!

I have dreams no, not a dream, I have DREAMS!!!! In chatting with a friend the other day, we started talking about dreams, day dreaming and all sorts of other stuff. My dreams will vastly differ from others I am sure, and may very well be right on with some. What is a dream in the first place? It is an escape from what we have, a place where we can go to be free to do and have the things we want. A place to take a break from life (and that peeps is just my opinion.) That sounds rather ummmm not so content to me....just sayin but, I am guilty of dreaming too. Dreaming is not bad so please do not take it that way. I believe we need to dream it is a way to stay sane in a crazy world but, yes I said BUT!!!!!! Some dreams take over and they can be lets say unhealthy.Most I hope can keep reality and dreams in their place and separated. God can help with that He is one we should turn to when we really need an escape from our life and He is NOT a dream. God the hope and foundation of my life, my trust for where and what to do lies completely in Him....my life has been far from a "dream" but I'm coming around and learning that not all of my dreams will come true. But, God has a plan and things I have never dared to dream about have happened and I can only give God the glory for that.With that said I am not saying dreams do not come true because sometimes they really do, just remember that our dreams and God's plans may be different. Even in disappointment try to keep your eyes open and fixed on God because, what He plans I am sure will always turn out so much better then anything we could have ever dreamed of.

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Sunday, April 14, 2013

Growing up is hard to do.....

I often think gosh I wish I was a kid again.....yes even with a less than stellar childhood being an adult has been one chore I wish I did not have to do but, alas I must so I am. In the last year I have had some great things happen and, some not so great things and, some really awful things happen and yet I am still standing. 
My daughter struggles with school, being made fun of and the whole pre-teen thing. My son has a whole new set of struggles and challenges ahead, I am telling you growing up is hard to do. Growing up comes with responsibility, with responsibility comes decisions that only we can make yet, we do not always make the right ones and that causes drama...with drama comes hurt feelings and anger....with anger comes more wrong choices and it starts all over again. So it seems we are just playing out our childhood all over only on a bigger scale. With this all said I come to this point......We are no longer children, we need to grow up and act like responsible adults, we need to be role models for our kids but, how do we do that? By wearing out the knees of our pants in a slightly different way than our kids...When we pray God can guide us and help us live with out the drama so many seem to crave. Instead of being childish when someone does something we do not like may be we should do this instead.....

Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. Rejoice with those who rejoice, weep with those who weep. Be of the same mind toward one another. Do not set your mind on high things, but associate with the humble. Do not be wise in your own opinion. Repay no one evil for evil. Have regard for good things in the sight of all men. If it is possible, as much as depends on you, live peaceably with all men.
Romans 12: 14-18

Like I said growing up is hard to do but how we grow up depends entirely on us....I am not perfect! I have to learn this all to familiar lesson too. And drama seems to be my middle name but, I am trying to learn what God wants from me and how He wants me to be. Our kids reflect us and if we have drama there is a good chance they will too.....Life is life we all grow up and drama is drama but, with God it can be a whole lot better than without Him.

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas







Monday, February 18, 2013

Talk to THE HAND!!!!!

Once again I am sitting in the stillness of the morning....sipping my warm coffee listening for sounds of stirring kids and thinking..... contemplating....As a child I was told there was only one sin that was unforgivable according to God. That sin was Blasphemy of the Holy Spirit. I remember hearing that if you did, you had a one way ticket to the fire and brimstone motel. A motel that had a spa where you can sweat your joys away in an eternal sauna with no hope of refreshment or peace. Unforgivable, never forgiving, sounds kind of scary to me. I remember getting mad at God and yelling at Him and then, thinking I was never going to Heaven because of it, fear and grief just flooded me....as a kid. As a young adult (oh my young adult? what am I now???) I remember when I got mad at God to watch what I said and not say anything that could actually be considered blasphemy. What does blasphemy mean anyway? So glad you asked! In the Merriam Webster online dictionary Blasphemy means this- 1) The act of insulting or showing contempt or lack of reverence for God. 2) The act of claiming the attributes of deity. 3) irreverence toward something considered sacred or inviolable. Sounds pretty straight forward but, is it really? My Pastor put it in a great way (I'm paraphrasing here) blasphemy is like when someone puts up their hand in the face of the one talking because, they do not want to hear something that person has to say and says TALK TO THE HAND!!!! When a person says talk to the hand to God or the Holy Spirit, it is blasphemy and unforgivable IF, yes I said IF and its big.....IF they do it until they take their last breath, then there is no turning back. SOOOOOO God is merciful and just and, there is an escape clause to the unforgivable sin. The thing is, you have to want to take it and mean it. What is the "escape clause?" REPENTANCE, take down your hand, let God talk to you. Ask the most forgiving, kind, loving, merciful God to forgive you. Let God work in you He wants to. David a man of power sinned, He looked at a woman, slept with her, got her pregnant and then had her hubby killed to cover it all up yet, God still forgave because, David had a repentant heart. No matter what you have done in your life God is waiting for you. Take Down your defiant hand and take the loving hand of God. Let Him walk with you, talk to you and lead you. Given the choice and we all have been given THE CHOICE, I am gonna say to satan TALK TO THE HAND!!!!! To God I'm gonna say, I'm sorry, forgive me, work with me and make me who YOU want me to be. Yesterday in Church a song started running through my brain by I believe Chris Tomlin.....

                                                     I'm forgiven because you were forsaken,
                                                     I'm accepted, you were condemned
                                                     I'm alive and well, your spirit is within me,
                                                     because you died and rose again.

                                                     Amazing love, how can it be that you, my King,
                                                     should die for me?
                                                     Amazing love, I know it's true.
                                                     It's my joy to honor You, In all I do, I honor You
                                                     You are my King, Jesus You are my King.

It repeats itself but, it gets the point across don't ya think? After all that why would anyone say talk to the hand?

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Friday, February 8, 2013

Turning the tables....

There is a lot I will handle not always well but, I handle it....when it comes to my kids or kids generally there is not much I will take. The issue of bullying is a real one, one that needs to be addressed. Especially when it comes to the point where the child being bullied takes matters in to their own hands and hurt themselves or worse says goodbye forever. I see with my own kids, my daughter coming home crying because she is being made fun of yet if she tells at school she gets it worse, so she tells me. I want to step in and help but the independent lil thing she is....she wants to fix it herself but, it doesn't always get fixed. As a parent when do I step in? when does mama bear come out and protect her cub? well I guess it all depends on how the child is doing but, the important thing is to LISTEN yes a six letter word that most (and I'm guilty myself) parents don't really do. What ever the reason for being bullied it makes the kid feel inadequate, they feel like they are unwanted, unloved, stupid and many more things. we need to pray for the next generation we need to band together and unite to stop the bullying it may save a life. Bulling is mean and uncalled for, making fun of people is so not cool....Hey Bully's what if it were you?

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Picking up your pieces!

It has been awhile since I have written anything. I must admit my brain has been blocked from my heart and the words would not come. Actually I am not even sure how this post will come out but here it goes. I follow several pages on FB of kids who are battling cancer, I read of the heartache the parents are going through, I cry when they do and I smile at the happy words they write. My heart just gets ripped out when I read of a child who gains their wings and the pain the family feels. I can not even begin to imagine nor do I wish to know. In reading all of the posts everything I may be going through just pales in comparison. The stress I have is nothing to what they have yet, so many have faith and believe God has a plan and they trust Him through it all, the tears, the anger, the confusion the tossing and turning of the raging storm they are sailing through....so my question to you is this, if a parent losing their child can hold their faith in a loving God, why can't we the average person? We may stress over things like a fight, or a break up or even money. Its NOTHING compared to what they experience yet to most the world is ending.....I am learning this complete trust thing and, it is not easy to do, I want to hide but I can't, I shouldn't, I won't. In the last year I have lost so much  but I have gained more I am learning lessons a long time in coming. I want to encourage all who read this to think twice before you fall apart over things, realize God has His hand on you and will walk with you through it all. Keep in mind you can pick up the pieces of your life and keep going....for the parents who lose a child the pieces will never be completely picked up there will always be some missing.........

That's my thought for the day,

Cray for Christmas