Two words, a smile and a choice.......

As we close the month of November and start the last month of 2014 there is a slight difference to this season in life. There feels like something hanging over the Christmas season and I think we need to figure out a way to change things up and get Merry and Bright for the season of Jesus's birth. Thinking over the last 11 months it started out ok but it went spiraling out of whack about 4 months into it for my family and we have been off our game....I have been off my game the one who runs things, runs the taxi service, maid service, cook, nurse, teacher and the one who gets the blame for ruining my kids lives because I said no oh my, I am off my game. I have disconnected from family, friends true ones and so called ones, and I will admit my church as well....I still go but I feel out of place me the social butterfly and I avoid social situations....I am off my game. I do not know when I will get back to my game but, I know Christmas is a season of love, peace, hope, giving, caring, sharing and a heaviness is hanging on like an icicle hanging on to the eves of a house in 10 below weather. so how about we do this We smile everyday even if we do not feel like it, we decide to have a good day and tell people Merry Christmas if we can do that maybe the joy of Christmas will spread like wild fire across our nation, our world. There may be just one person who needs that smile to give them hope in what may seem like a hopeless time, maybe the Merry Christmas will help someone know there is good in this world because a kind person actually spoke to them. Pay it forward sometime buy someones coffee or food at a drive through just to give them a gift. the little things we do can have a big effect on someones life and bring them some light in what otherwise may be a dark life. keep it in mind Merry Christmas it is just two words, a smile and a choice...

That's my thought for the day,

Peachy but, Crazy for Christmas

I Still Love You

Dear Child of mine:

I carried you so long ago, through the morning sickness and pain of delivery. God gave you to me to care for and raise and lead. I kissed the boo boo's, tucked you in, prayed with you every night, said good morning through your life. You counted on me to feed, care, clean, clothe, comfort and even discipline. Through Love and Logic and my feel free to do's right down to the feel free to stop using feel free from you. All along I have loved, cared, prayed and cried for you as the years pass you have developed your own personality, you have your own way of doing things, your very own attitude. You have learned life isn't fair, and you have your own share of pain. yet through it all I still love you even though I ruin your life, and I listen to how much you hate me I am still feeding you, caring for you, clothing you, comforting you and I am crying because of you yet I still LOVE you. My heart breaks with each harsh word I hear trying not to shed a tear instead sometimes I get angry with you yet I STILL LOVE YOU!!!!!! Every parents heart has their treasures and their pain, and to have you I would do it all over again....would I change things yes I would but, to only better life for you....my heart is heavy tonight as I try to figure you out I was once your age and I can only hope I was not this way but, I have a feeling I was so mama I am sorry for what I put you through in my time and for now I pray my kid will be alright.

That's my though for the day,

really peachy but, still Crazy for Christmas

God never gives up

I AM A SINNER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There is no doubt about that ! I have made choices and I have done things in my life I am not proud of. I have felt guilt and shame at those choices, I have turned away from God thinking those choices made Him not love me. All lies from the enemy, God forgives when you ask  He teaches us to forgive also. That last one is a bit difficult and, at this point in my life I am struggling with just that. I am just plain struggling!!!! Since spring when the world as I knew it came crashing down I have been struggling. The anger, guilt, sadness, hatred yes I said hatred (I know that is not good either and I am working on it) all of it has built up so much that I find myself doubting. Doubting myself, my family, my Church, Friends and God. That has caused me to feel some guilt and again lies from the enemy. I find myself disconnected from people I was once connected to and the desire to reconnect is not there. I have anger that is holding on to me so tight sometimes I find it hard to breathe. I want to LET IT GO!!!! (now im singing the song from frozen in my mind) I told God this morning I did not want this anymore I wanted to be free from it. and the song You Raise Me Up came to mind......

I will admit this song has gotten me through some tough times. I guess my whole point to this post is do not give up because God never gives up on you, do not listen to the lies of the enemy they will drag you down and hold you back and God wants us to move forward.

That's my thought for the day,

Peachy but, still Crazy for Christmas

Faith, Hope, Love....Nope pretty much just LOVE

To love means loving the unlovable. To forgive means pardoning the unpardonable. Faith means believing the unbelievable, Hope means hoping when everything seems hopeless.
Gilbert K. Chesterton

He makes some interesting points in this quote. My Pastor spoke about love in a sermon last Sunday. Pastor Paul said (and again I may not get it word for word but the idea is there) Love in any context is a choice!!! Pretty powerful words but oh so true. I have believed this most of my life loving someone is a choice we make whether we "FEEL" it or not.

There are 4 types of love Storge love (affection) or brotherly love, believe it or not Merriam Webster could not find this word so I am winging it here on this. Storge is a love that family feels for each other or a brotherly, sisterly and so on type of love ( my kids could use some lessons on this) it is love that an be vulnerable according to C.S. Lewis. It is a love for those we are close to.

Philia or Friendship love the dictionary had a meaning for it but not one I want to share when thinking of friendship, so you can look it up if you like. C.S. Lewis stated (Philia love) Friendship a strong bond between two people who share  common interests or activities. He also said that true friendships, like the friendship between David and Jonathan in the Bible, are almost a lost art. He expressed a strong dislike for how modern society ignores friendship. It is so easy to just throw a friendship away these days it is so hurtful and in my opinion throwing away a friendship on a whim is not a true one.

Eros romance the sense of being "in love"  ahhh how we (girls at least) dream of that perfect love, the knight in shining armor the one perfect match for our heart. Again so many just throw it away and move on to the next. We must choose to love that man or woman even when we do not feel it or at times even like them. In my opinion if you can not commit don't get into it Vows should never be taken lightly.

Agape unconditional love According to C.S. Lewis is the love that brings forth caring regardless the circumstance, the type God has for us.  Back to what my Pastor said God commands us to love Him.

God Never goes against His word. Some people feel that their feelings for Jesus can allow them to disregard God's commands, that is not real love. Loving the Lord compels us to keep His commands.
1 Corinthians 13:13 But now faith, hope, love, abide these three; but the greatest of these is love.

We have a free will God gave that to us it can be a blessing and a curse. Love is lived out one decision at a time. Love is a choice it is up to us to choose love over not loving at all.  Nothing is ever easy no one ever said it would be but, with God all things are possible through prayer and simple choices but we need to let our thoughts and heart be in tune to God not ourselves.

There are two kinds of people: those who say to God, 'thy will be done', and those to whom  God says, 'all right, then, have it your way'.
C.S. Lewis

free will blessing or curse if we choose to do our own thing our path will be longer and harder a lesson to be learned. Obey God's commands and love or don't you decide.

That's my thought for the day,

Peachy but still Crazy for Christmas

Zombies???? Are you one?

Ok so let me get one thing straight I do NOT like zombies but, there is a reason for my title. When I listen to what my Pastor teaches sometimes I get inspired like this past Sunday. My Pastor is teaching from Deuteronomy and he spoke on humility. What is humility??? Humility is when you are more concerned about others than yourself (and you do not even know it).....let us not confuse humility with humiliate which means to make (someone) feel very ashamed or foolish (Merriam Webster online dictionary) two words so very similar in spelling and sound but, they have two totally different meanings.

Humility is being humble and being humble is not proud; and not thinking of yourself as better than other people sound familiar? Being humble can be faked and you can put on a good show for all to see but, what really matters is what God sees, that is where your heart is....NO ONE can fool God! (side note here my Pastor has such great little tidbits of information and most of everything in here......the idea came from him I am just adding my own little twist to it.)  Onward and Upward??? well technically it is downward if you keep reading going up makes no sense what so ever......Humility and teachability is the platform for living! If we are not humble or teachable life can be ummmm interesting to say the least.....look at the Israelite's it took them 40 years to finally become teachable and actually learn but, they did not keep what they learned for long and life became complicated. Israel is the generation of unbelief does that sound like now???? with where our country is going I would say we are heading in that direction ourselves so very sad. (I actually took notes this week) "If we are in a humble place God wants us to be content" (Quoting Pastor Paul as best as I can) talk about WOW can you hit it any closer to home than that??? In my situation I actually have experienced humiliation as well as humbleness, am I content? well no I am not!! I really dislike where I am now but, on the bright side I do have a roof over my head even if I have wheels under my feet. I am thankful but, far from content....Have I been teachable? maybe not as much as I had thought. You see God tests us not because we do not know His heart but, to learn where, how our heart is. God does not ever reveal to us what is going to happen and that should drive us to our knees and to just have FAITH!!!! Yes there it is people the little 5 letter word we tend to struggle with. Being a believer is not about ya dude I believe there is a God what more do you need from me????

Deuteronomy 8:3 NASB says
3 He humbled you and let you be hungry, fed you with manna which you did not know, nor did your father know, that He might make you understand that man does not live by bread alone, but man lives by everything that proceeds out of the mouth of the Lord.

Matthew 4:4 says the same thing (just different words) NASB
4 But He answered and said, "It is written, Man shall NOT live on bread alone, but on EVERY word that proceeds out of the mouth of God.'

Our own pleasure is not our reward and anyone thinking they live for bread alone is one of.....(wait for it)....the living dead, see I told you my title had a reason ZOMBIES!!!!!! the word just popped into my head when my Pastor said "the living dead".  Yes my friends I described it as we have Christians living on earth on bread alone and they are just like zombies....I do not want to be a zombie, I want to be ALIVE and full of God and His love. Even when we do not follow what God wants, when we disobey, God still loves us. It is our job to reach the lost, to pray for them. So many are searching for something and when they do not find it they take things into their own hands. It has a bigger affect on those around that were left to pick up the pieces. My prayer is this that God will drop a big revival on our world! Not just our nation but, world wide and those who are lost, sad and hurting might finally be found, happy and pain free. starting with our families, friends and spreading out from there just pray please let's pray that the zombies will come back to the land of the living.

That's my though for the day,

Peachy but, still Crazy for Christmas 135 days to go :-)

We all have our own Egypt

Yesterday my Pastor started the message with some crazy laws that are in the books and real and when he mentioned Hood River he looked right at me....did you know that if you want to juggle in Hood River, Oregon you need a license??? ha ha how funny is that? Hood River is a town I went to a Christian school or two in and it is not far from where I grew up, graduated, got married and had my first child. My daughter decided to look up other laws (during service and we will be chatting about that) that are completely ridiculous. As always for my Pastor there are spiritual lessons in everything and he taught from Deuteronomy 5 Moses going over the 10 commandments again the Laws God laid down for the Israelites. Pausing here I am going to go off on my own little thing now......The Israelites were ALWAYS straying and doing their own thing. When Moses was up on the mountain chatting with God they were down there saying let's get this party started and roped Moses's brother the big A into helping. God was not happy to say the least, punishments were handed out and they were forgiven. They went on their way but, it appears this happened a lot all through the old testament. God rescued them from Egypt, saved them from drowning, fed them, watered them, healed them, protected them, guided them with pillars of cloud and fire all because He loved them and they kept being human. Flash forward a few thousand years question for you how are we different from the Israelites??? we're not!!!!!!!!! We all have our own Egypt everyone is different yet God is still the same. God set laws for us to follow so we can live our life the way He wants us to and I am guessing more often than not.....we pullout the stops and do our own thing especially, when it seems nothing is happening.....I am guilty of that totally and the consequences of us telling God thanks but I will do it now.....well I think you can all guess what happens when we do a human sinner nature thing like that...I guess my point is we are not much different than the people in the Bible but, God has always stayed the same.

so some crazy laws here you go.
Oregon (my state)

• Drivers may NOT test their physical endurance while driving a car on the Highway
• A door on a car may not be left open any longer than necessary
• Dishes must drip dry

Rhode Island

• One must make a loud noise before passing a car on the left

Providence Rhode Island

• you may not sell tooth paste and toothbrush to the same customer on Sunday 

Kentucky

• throwing eggs at a public speaker could result in a prison sentence of up to one year this was repealed in 1975
• one may not dye a duckling blue and offer it up for sale unless there are more than 6 ducklings for sale at once

Alabama

• it is illegal to wear a fake mustache that causes laughter in Church
• it is illegal for a driver to be blindfolded while operating a vehicle
• you may not have an ice cream cone in your back pocket at any time

Maine

• after January 14th you will be fined for having Christmas decorations up

Washington

• all lollipops are banned
• the harassing of Bigfoot, Sasquatch or other undiscovered species is a felony punishable by a fine and/or imprisonment
• it is illegal to pretend that ones parents are rich
• when two trains come to a crossing, neither shall go until the other has passed

All of these and more are funny but, at some point there was a reason to make them (my Pastor said something like that too). In closing this very random post but maybe not so random keep in mind God has never changed even though everything else has.

That's my thought for the day,

Peachy but, still crazy for Christmas

Merry Christmas Eve 6 months early!!!!!

Yes it is indeed exactly 6 months from Christmas Eve and I have decided on a new tradition for my family (because I just love traditions). But, before I get to telling you about it I am going to sidetrack just a smidge. if you have been reading the previous posts you may have gathered there is something up with the family. It has been tremendously difficult on all of us hence the new tradition (in hoping for uplifted spirits). There have been some people who have been there and I want to thank you for your support and you know who you are. There have been some who have said they were supportive but......well it was not so much supportive and somewhat hurtful. I am not sure you know who you are but, I refuse to name names. With that said I am still peachy and there is a long road ahead but, I am hoping that there is hope to be found in this post so that it may help someone who may need to be uplifted.

On the day before the 6 months until Christmas (THE GREATEST BIRTHDAY EVER) the house was busy with preparations for the half yearly Christmas celebration. The decorations were already up because they really didn't come down (well sort of the cats love to play with them). Harry Connick Jr was playing Christmas music while there was tons of things to be done. There were stockings to be hung, lights to be lit and gifts to be wrapped. and dinner to be made but, mostly there was Jesus to remember and the reason we have that special day. Why? you ask do I celebrate everyday of every year? Well I will tell you because, we should celebrate Jesus everyday and spread the love, joy, peace, goodwill toward all, kindness and all the things that surround Jesus. Christmas is ALL about Him so why should we only celebrate for a season? Even in my struggles I celebrate because without Jesus I would be so very lost. I struggle with my faith but, in my struggles I see God's hand on my life I have seen Him provide when I thought all was lost. I will tell you that His answers are not always what I want to hear but, then I am reminded He has something better in store for my life. I have to be patient that little 7 letter word which at times can seem so ginormous and something I never ask for but, God seems to find a way to teach me. Waiting has never been a strong quality in me and at times I stomp my foot and yell at God about something......for instance before I got my car back I was walking the mile to the bus in the pouring down rain. I was yelling at God and I said WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO SAY???? THAT I'M THANKFUL TO BE WALKING??? FINE I'M THANKFUL TO BE WALKING!!!!!! not more than 2 minutes later a friend of mine who was going to work early in the opposite direction pulled over and offered me a ride. Not just to the bus station but, all the way to where I was headed. Talk about being humbled wow....so I guess my whole point is Jesus is there 24/7 so in turn we should thank Him, love Him, talk to Him, CELEBRATE HIM at all times not just for a short season. He will be there if you only ask. Merry Christmas may Joy, Love, Faith, Peace and Goodwill be ever present in you and your life.

That's my though for the day,

Still Peachy but so very Crazy for Christmas

Who Am I Again??

A question I have been wondering about a lot lately is Who Am I??? at one time I would have said with out hesitation I am A Child of the ONE true King as Matthew West puts it but, today I stand wondering WHO AM I??? I do not know anymore. As you all may have figured out there has been some unpleasant things happening in my life and in the lives of my family. There is tons of anger, and blame for what is going on being put on to some who had nothing to do with what happened. They just happened to be in the crossfire of it. The unfortunate thing is it is tearing relationships apart and there is no way of knowing if time will heal the wounds. Without actually going into details about what happened I will share what is happening to me before you think how selfish, this is only my part of the story there is so much more to it. I am going through a sort of grieving process or so I have been told. I will probably go through it longer than some in my family again so I have been told. I am angry at the world (I guess that is at just about everyone), I feel no one cares, I feel all alone in this, I feel like I have to do it on my own, I cry, I yell, I scream usually at God because I know He will listen and not get irritated with me or remind me it is not about me. I have to be the pillar of strength for my family, I have to act like I am ok when I am peachy I have to listen, take the anger directed toward me (because of the situation) and not bat an eyelash....I am expected to carry on and not work through it because it is not about me. BUT (and that is a big one) I experienced this in my past, I am remembering the struggle and hurt I had then, on top of going through it and supporting the one who is experiencing it now. Double whammy is an understatement of the century yet, I am expected to be the champion and my strength is growing weak. I have tried to reach out and feel shut out so I am done reaching. I have deactivated my FB and I do not know if I will ever return. I have been told don't shut people out but honestly God is the ONLY one who I think I can count on. My friends have their own struggles so I do not want to burden them with mine. I will admit there are one or two I feel I can talk to and I do via text sometimes. The days I feel overwhelmed and want to do nothing but cry....I do it on my own. So for now I am turning to God the only ear who will not turn away. I am combing through my Bible. While reading I come across things that I want to ask questions about because I want to learn but from now on I just don't ask.....so I guess in answer to my question or at least a part of the answer is yes I am a child of the One true King and I am thankful for that, it is the most important part of me, yet it is not all of me but, I still have not figured it all out. This has changed me and I am not sure I like it but that is for me to figure out on my own. This song was running through my head when I woke up this morning I am sure I posted this before but here it is again by Matthew West

Have a blessed day and remember if you feel like there is no one just lean on God a little more.

That's my thought for the day,

Peachy but still Crazy for Christmas

A Hint Of Promise.....

I saw a double rainbow yesterday, it is not often that I get the pleasure of seeing one. When I looked at them the words A Hint Of Promise just popped into my mind. I just stared at them for a long while the first or "main" one was strong and vibrant and so full of color and beauty the second was almost just a hint of a rainbow yet still so visible and colorful and just as beautiful. I am different now than I was just a few months ago, things can happen that can and will spin an entire existence out of whack to the point where the certainty of life and where it is going is called into question. My questions? will I ever get past this happening? will my family? will we ever find peace? when will the pain stop and the healing begin? Like I said in my last post I am angry so very angry. I am dealing with wounds from the past that I thought had healed yet they have been torn wide open all over again on top of the hurt that my family is feeling. I am needed to be strong for my family and my strength is wearing thin I am tired. I am Peachy!!!! or so I tell people....I feel alone. I have stopped talking  to people I have shut down and I am dealing with it on my own because I am so tried of people telling me what I should or should not feel or think. I boycotted Mothers day, I begged for a reason to go to Church and I got silence....


Then God spoke to Noah and to his sons with him, saying: "And as for Me, behold, I establish My covenant with you and with your descendants after you, and with every living creature that is with you: the birds, the cattle, and every beast of the earth with you, of all that go out of the ark, every beast of the earth. Thus I establish My covenant with you: Never again shall all flesh be cut off by the waters of the flood; never again shall there be a flood to destroy the earth." And God said: "This is the sign of the covenant which I make between Me and you, and every living creature that is with you, for perpetual generations: I set My rainbow in the cloud, and it shall be for the sign of the covenant between me and the earth. It shall be, when I bring a cloud over the earth, that the rainbow shall be seen in the cloud; and I will remember My covenant which is between Me and you and every living creature of all flesh; the waters shall never again become a flood to destroy all flesh. The rainbow shall be in the cloud, and I will look on it to remember the everlasting covenant between God and every living creature of all flesh that is on the earth." And God said to Noah, "this is the sign of the covenant which I have established between Me and all flesh that is on the earth."
Genesis 9:8-17

I am not saying that God promised life would be peaches and cream but He did Promise us not to destroy us. Also He reminds us to look to Him at all times not just in time of need. I will admit I have wanted to boycott God as horrid as that sounds but I am angry yet again (or still whatever the case may be) my head says yes but my heart says silly girl God isn't going to let you go that easily.....will I get past this? hopefully so, will I ever see that light that is always said to be at the end of the tunnel?? again I hope so, will it be easy? no not at all, will I give up??? as much as I may want to probably not. I am searching for peace, Will I forgive those who hurt me and my family?? only time will tell but, I am reminded that Matthew 18:21-22 says Then Peter came to Him and said "Lord, how often shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? up to seven times?" Jesus said to him, "I do not say to you, up to seven times, but up to seventy times seven." so I really hope I do. Yesterday I saw A Hint Of Promise and it made me smile I mean really smile on my own for the first time in a long time....May God bring you peace and a hint of promise to you in your life.

That's my thought for the day,

Peachy but still Crazy for Christmas

I am Peachy!!!!!!!!!!

When life gives lemons make lemonade right??? So what about if life gives you rotten lemons???? What do you make then??? I have always tried to keep my posts upbeat and positive and all about God, today I am frustrated, angry, hurt and so much more I am not sure how to make something sweet out of a situation so sour. I have people who are a support and people who are praying but, what do I do when I am angry at God? Me personally I go to Church (at least I did yesterday) even if I did not feel like it, I listened to the message and absorbed what the Pastor was teaching (well I tried to) and I told people I am peachy  (I do not think they believed me). I am angry at the world, life and it's unfairness, people who shall remain nameless and at my Pastor and I do not even know why I am angry with him he has been so kind and loving and supportive through this ooey gooey yucky sour lemon mess and yet I am angry. I have been diving into my Bible looking for something just choosing random books to read hoping to stumble upon something to bring peace. I will admit it is the most I have read my Bible at one time in my life...I am searching for something and I know the answer is in there so I keep going. Yet I am still angry at people who have been nothing but kind and not in anyway involved in this ooey gooey lemon mess. I cry everyday and, I have feelings that I am told I should not have to feel yet, I can not help how I feel. I am told to release it to God and ya'll know I am always saying let go and let God....I am finding it easier said than done. It came to pass yep Mark Lowry has it right I just wish it would not have come at all it could have passed with out stopping by my life. But, pass it shall and I will come out of it at some point in time and maybe peace will come then too. I have debated on whether to post this one or not and it has certainly taken more time to write than usual, and I know there is a lesson in here to be learned not only by me but maybe someone else too. I am human, I am sinner I have bad days and I yell at God sometimes but, one thing I have hung on to is God is grace, love, kindness, forgiveness, mercy and there He is ALWAYS there no matter how mad I get at Him or how much I yell at Him, He NEVER leaves me. Deuteronomy 31:8 says And the Lord, He is the One who goes before you. He will be with you, He will not leave you nor forsake you; do not fear nor be dismayed. Am I still angry? Why yes, yes I am and God will have to work with me on that one, Am I still angry at my Pastor? No not so much anymore (but, admittedly yesterday I was when I started writing this post) I love my Pastor and the teachings he does and the sour lemon thingy is not his fault. I pray you are having blessing come down in your life and when life gives you lemons make a cheesecake, as for me???  I am peachy at least for now!

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

The Big IF!!!!!!!!!

I am sitting here drinking my dark chocolate fudge coffee listening the the soft Christmas music drifting from my son's room as he sleeps, (Yes He loves it as much as I do and sleeps with it every night) and I am thinking (yes I said I am thinking haha). I am thinking about where I am in my life, the things I see happening to people around me good and not so good, and my kids. My daughter struggles with faith in God and I admit so do I sometimes she sees someone who was not honest about something get rewarded and then she looks at where we are and asks me why??? she told me the other day "mom I have spent half my life in this trailer" it made me think about how that must be making her feel. she can not invite friends over we do not have the room, she gets made fun of in school so she tries not to let people know that we live in a trailer. How do I help her with that? I tell both my kids God has blessed us and they ask how? we do not see it....so with that I have to think back and realize just how much we have been blessed and I tell them. I admit they are not huge in comparison but, they are blessings just the same for instance I have been looking for a free or cheap washer I found one now I do not have to wash clothes by hand anymore...BLESSING!!!!! I have to walk everywhere I go these days sometimes I have to catch the bus to the next town that walk to the bus stop one way is a mile sometimes I get a ride BLESSING!!!!!!!! the days the sun shines in the midst of rain BLESSING!!!! So even in times of frustration I find blessings and I tell my kids about them. I have a blessing jar that I believe I mentioned in a past post I try to write all of these things down so at the end of the year I can see the blessings I have had. I try to be positive for my kids sometimes without success but, in those times I always get reminded of God's hand in my life and I try to just breathe. I see struggles all around with my friends, family and people I do not know and I pray for peace, joy, wisdom, comfort and provision for those people and yes for us too. I try to be happy for those that have good things come their way I really do but I admit I often wonder when is it our turn? I know I know I talk about trusting God all of the time but, I am human and I do ask. I admit I get my hopes up about things most of the time to get them crushed but, I am then reminded that in God's perfect time things will happen. People God's perfect time is NOT our perfect time plain and simple! I remind myself daily trust God, this year I claimed a home and a good running car and I am still claiming it my Pastor said a while ago do not be afraid to ask for the big stuff, we as believers tend to ask for the small stuff. So I have asked God for the big stuff now I wait for His time, I am praying that I do not yank the wheel back and try to hurry things along. I leave you with this....Matthew 17:20 So Jesus said to them, Because of your unbelief; for assuredly, I say to you, if you have faith as a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there', and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you.
God IS in control no matter the situation in life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IF we will only let go and let Him have it things will be so much better.

That's my though for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

What do Your Decisions say about you???

I have slacked some the last few months but, I am here today. Decisions we make in life will make the way for our life they also say a lot about who you are. If we choose to do our own thing not thinking of God's will or the people in our life we can see some not so nice things working....but, what if we strive to do what God wants and think of others and we still see some not so nice things in our life what then???? The decision is yours, we can let anger, bitterness, hatred, and deceit from the devil take over our lives or we can stand up and say ok God I get it where do I go from here??? Trust that 5 letter word that I am still working on it comes into play the thing is WE NEED TO TRULY HAVE IT!!!!! Hi my name is Billie  I have trust issues, I have no home, no car and I can not volunteer anymore in the schools because I have no way to get there....am I angry??? oh ya I am....one of the things I love to do the most has been taken away from me and I am so very frustrated and angry but, in the past God has blessed me with transportation through a friend then, it suddenly became unavailable but, is was to expensive for my family anyway yet He still provided and now........I am stuck...I know that He will continue to provide and there has to be a lesson in here somewhere right??? Last week I was told I am to used to being needy and I expect way to much from people who are helping....it broke my heart I HATE asking for help and this help was offered to me....so THE DECISION???? I am not asking anymore (except from God) I do not want to be seen in that light I want God to shine through me. I want people to look at me and see God shining in my actions, reactions and everything I do. I want to be an example for my kids and others I want them to see how I am in rough times and only by the grace of God will I come through it. May God bless you in your life and decisions.

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas