I AM A SINNER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There is no doubt about that ! I have made choices and I have done things in my life I am not proud of. I have felt guilt and shame at those choices, I have turned away from God thinking those choices made Him not love me. All lies from the enemy, God forgives when you ask He teaches us to forgive also. That last one is a bit difficult and, at this point in my life I am struggling with just that. I am just plain struggling!!!! Since spring when the world as I knew it came crashing down I have been struggling. The anger, guilt, sadness, hatred yes I said hatred (I know that is not good either and I am working on it) all of it has built up so much that I find myself doubting. Doubting myself, my family, my Church, Friends and God. That has caused me to feel some guilt and again lies from the enemy. I find myself disconnected from people I was once connected to and the desire to reconnect is not there. I have anger that is holding on to me so tight sometimes I find it hard to breathe. I want to LET IT GO!!!! (now im singing the song from frozen in my mind) I told God this morning I did not want this anymore I wanted to be free from it. and the song You Raise Me Up came to mind......
I will admit this song has gotten me through some tough times. I guess my whole point to this post is do not give up because God never gives up on you, do not listen to the lies of the enemy they will drag you down and hold you back and God wants us to move forward.
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