I Still Love You

Dear Child of mine:

I carried you so long ago, through the morning sickness and pain of delivery. God gave you to me to care for and raise and lead. I kissed the boo boo's, tucked you in, prayed with you every night, said good morning through your life. You counted on me to feed, care, clean, clothe, comfort and even discipline. Through Love and Logic and my feel free to do's right down to the feel free to stop using feel free from you. All along I have loved, cared, prayed and cried for you as the years pass you have developed your own personality, you have your own way of doing things, your very own attitude. You have learned life isn't fair, and you have your own share of pain. yet through it all I still love you even though I ruin your life, and I listen to how much you hate me I am still feeding you, caring for you, clothing you, comforting you and I am crying because of you yet I still LOVE you. My heart breaks with each harsh word I hear trying not to shed a tear instead sometimes I get angry with you yet I STILL LOVE YOU!!!!!! Every parents heart has their treasures and their pain, and to have you I would do it all over again....would I change things yes I would but, to only better life for you....my heart is heavy tonight as I try to figure you out I was once your age and I can only hope I was not this way but, I have a feeling I was so mama I am sorry for what I put you through in my time and for now I pray my kid will be alright.

That's my though for the day,

really peachy but, still Crazy for Christmas