The Big IF!!!!!!!!!

I am sitting here drinking my dark chocolate fudge coffee listening the the soft Christmas music drifting from my son's room as he sleeps, (Yes He loves it as much as I do and sleeps with it every night) and I am thinking (yes I said I am thinking haha). I am thinking about where I am in my life, the things I see happening to people around me good and not so good, and my kids. My daughter struggles with faith in God and I admit so do I sometimes she sees someone who was not honest about something get rewarded and then she looks at where we are and asks me why??? she told me the other day "mom I have spent half my life in this trailer" it made me think about how that must be making her feel. she can not invite friends over we do not have the room, she gets made fun of in school so she tries not to let people know that we live in a trailer. How do I help her with that? I tell both my kids God has blessed us and they ask how? we do not see it....so with that I have to think back and realize just how much we have been blessed and I tell them. I admit they are not huge in comparison but, they are blessings just the same for instance I have been looking for a free or cheap washer I found one now I do not have to wash clothes by hand anymore...BLESSING!!!!! I have to walk everywhere I go these days sometimes I have to catch the bus to the next town that walk to the bus stop one way is a mile sometimes I get a ride BLESSING!!!!!!!! the days the sun shines in the midst of rain BLESSING!!!! So even in times of frustration I find blessings and I tell my kids about them. I have a blessing jar that I believe I mentioned in a past post I try to write all of these things down so at the end of the year I can see the blessings I have had. I try to be positive for my kids sometimes without success but, in those times I always get reminded of God's hand in my life and I try to just breathe. I see struggles all around with my friends, family and people I do not know and I pray for peace, joy, wisdom, comfort and provision for those people and yes for us too. I try to be happy for those that have good things come their way I really do but I admit I often wonder when is it our turn? I know I know I talk about trusting God all of the time but, I am human and I do ask. I admit I get my hopes up about things most of the time to get them crushed but, I am then reminded that in God's perfect time things will happen. People God's perfect time is NOT our perfect time plain and simple! I remind myself daily trust God, this year I claimed a home and a good running car and I am still claiming it my Pastor said a while ago do not be afraid to ask for the big stuff, we as believers tend to ask for the small stuff. So I have asked God for the big stuff now I wait for His time, I am praying that I do not yank the wheel back and try to hurry things along. I leave you with this....Matthew 17:20 So Jesus said to them, Because of your unbelief; for assuredly, I say to you, if you have faith as a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there', and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you.
God IS in control no matter the situation in life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IF we will only let go and let Him have it things will be so much better.

That's my though for the day,

Crazy for Christmas