The Big IF!!!!!!!!!

I am sitting here drinking my dark chocolate fudge coffee listening the the soft Christmas music drifting from my son's room as he sleeps, (Yes He loves it as much as I do and sleeps with it every night) and I am thinking (yes I said I am thinking haha). I am thinking about where I am in my life, the things I see happening to people around me good and not so good, and my kids. My daughter struggles with faith in God and I admit so do I sometimes she sees someone who was not honest about something get rewarded and then she looks at where we are and asks me why??? she told me the other day "mom I have spent half my life in this trailer" it made me think about how that must be making her feel. she can not invite friends over we do not have the room, she gets made fun of in school so she tries not to let people know that we live in a trailer. How do I help her with that? I tell both my kids God has blessed us and they ask how? we do not see it....so with that I have to think back and realize just how much we have been blessed and I tell them. I admit they are not huge in comparison but, they are blessings just the same for instance I have been looking for a free or cheap washer I found one now I do not have to wash clothes by hand anymore...BLESSING!!!!! I have to walk everywhere I go these days sometimes I have to catch the bus to the next town that walk to the bus stop one way is a mile sometimes I get a ride BLESSING!!!!!!!! the days the sun shines in the midst of rain BLESSING!!!! So even in times of frustration I find blessings and I tell my kids about them. I have a blessing jar that I believe I mentioned in a past post I try to write all of these things down so at the end of the year I can see the blessings I have had. I try to be positive for my kids sometimes without success but, in those times I always get reminded of God's hand in my life and I try to just breathe. I see struggles all around with my friends, family and people I do not know and I pray for peace, joy, wisdom, comfort and provision for those people and yes for us too. I try to be happy for those that have good things come their way I really do but I admit I often wonder when is it our turn? I know I know I talk about trusting God all of the time but, I am human and I do ask. I admit I get my hopes up about things most of the time to get them crushed but, I am then reminded that in God's perfect time things will happen. People God's perfect time is NOT our perfect time plain and simple! I remind myself daily trust God, this year I claimed a home and a good running car and I am still claiming it my Pastor said a while ago do not be afraid to ask for the big stuff, we as believers tend to ask for the small stuff. So I have asked God for the big stuff now I wait for His time, I am praying that I do not yank the wheel back and try to hurry things along. I leave you with this....Matthew 17:20 So Jesus said to them, Because of your unbelief; for assuredly, I say to you, if you have faith as a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there', and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you.
God IS in control no matter the situation in life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IF we will only let go and let Him have it things will be so much better.

That's my though for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

What do Your Decisions say about you???

I have slacked some the last few months but, I am here today. Decisions we make in life will make the way for our life they also say a lot about who you are. If we choose to do our own thing not thinking of God's will or the people in our life we can see some not so nice things working....but, what if we strive to do what God wants and think of others and we still see some not so nice things in our life what then???? The decision is yours, we can let anger, bitterness, hatred, and deceit from the devil take over our lives or we can stand up and say ok God I get it where do I go from here??? Trust that 5 letter word that I am still working on it comes into play the thing is WE NEED TO TRULY HAVE IT!!!!! Hi my name is Billie  I have trust issues, I have no home, no car and I can not volunteer anymore in the schools because I have no way to get there....am I angry??? oh ya I am....one of the things I love to do the most has been taken away from me and I am so very frustrated and angry but, in the past God has blessed me with transportation through a friend then, it suddenly became unavailable but, is was to expensive for my family anyway yet He still provided and now........I am stuck...I know that He will continue to provide and there has to be a lesson in here somewhere right??? Last week I was told I am to used to being needy and I expect way to much from people who are helping....it broke my heart I HATE asking for help and this help was offered to me....so THE DECISION???? I am not asking anymore (except from God) I do not want to be seen in that light I want God to shine through me. I want people to look at me and see God shining in my actions, reactions and everything I do. I want to be an example for my kids and others I want them to see how I am in rough times and only by the grace of God will I come through it. May God bless you in your life and decisions.

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Count Your Blessings~

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year all, it has been a bit since I have written but, I thought this day being the last day we will ever see in 2013 I should.

I have to say this year went really fast it seems like only yesterday we started and today we are saying goodbye. I have struggled quite a bit this year my faith has been shaken but, I stood strong with the help from some of my friends and most importantly God. I have faced challenges I am unsure of, I have experienced yet again the lack of space in my home. I am currently with out a car and my son has newly been diagnosed with Aspergers and I am dealing with an emotional 12 year girl who is trying to figure life out (I was there once I really hope I was not this extreme with my mom) with all of that, I look back and see where God carried me and I am eternally thankful. I am a firm believer in claiming things in my life , in my faith in so much and for 2014 I am claiming for my family Joy, peace, happiness, and more. I am claiming the seed of a thankful heart and a joyful countenance to grow and blossom in the hearts of my family and myself. I am claiming good things to happen for us, I am claiming direction and guidance for my life for my children and my Husband. I am claiming more of God and less of me, I am claiming Gods provision and blessings in the coming year. I am claiming wisdom, strength, courage, grace, and humbleness. I am going to count my blessings instead of dwell on the one thing after another that seems to happen. I am going to disown Murphy and ignore his law. I am claiming joy, blessings, hope, love, peace, kindness for all of you as well. When school starts back and I am volunteering, I am going to make a blessings jar, so that during the year I can write down with the date everything good that has happened and exactly one year from today, I am going to read them. I offer a challenge to you today do not resolve to do anything claim it, pray about it and let God lead you where He wants you to go. start a blessing jar and watch it fill up. God be with you as you start the New Year, what ever challenges come up, let God help you to face them He will.....Count your blessings my friends Happy New Year.

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas,

Reminiscing.....

Just a really short and sweet post I have today, I was going through old posts and saw my version of the night before Christmas and I wanted to re-share it here I hope you enjoy it.

The Christmas light in the dark......

There is a heaviness that has settled upon our Country like a thick fog, it is hard to see and navigate our lives with it. All over there are people who are struggling with so many different things, depression, anger, hopelessness, grief, loss of income, home, car. What ever it is the overwhelming heaviness has made it's presence well known. With the Holidays upon us it gets heavier, this year seems to be no exception. I have even felt it's pull a little and my first thought is just let go and go with the flow but, I do not like going with the flow per say, I tend to do things that are not the norm and in this I am determined to do just that. I want to be a light in the fog, and of course it has to be a Christmas light shining oh so beautifully bright. I am just one but, if people decided to stand with me one light at a time and shine with all of their hearts maybe we could shine through the fog and become the light in the dark. It is time to stand and take back our Country blow away the fog and allow some joy to come back and say hello. It is sad that joy has been sucked out and replaced with so many negative feelings. God wants us to be the light in the dark and I am asking you to shine with me and bring some hope back into the lives of people around us. Find joy in little things find something to be grateful for in the bad and realize there are so many out there who are far worse off. That my friends is a lesson I am learning myself, Not an easy one for sure but if you learn it well maybe it will not have to be relearned. I am no Job but I have had my share of trials and I still am but, God is my strength and I am determined to tirelessly shine!

Merry Christmas

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

The things we say!

So I had a gentleman from the UK messaging me on FB I read the messages to my husband and he said he seems like a nice guy. Me being me and unsure of what a pen pal does or says mistook some things and well opened my mouth. I have big feet and I am proud of them but, not so much when I insert them into my mouth. I am afraid I may have upset him since I have not heard from him in a few days. With all of that said here we go............when we speak we need to think, if we do not, words we do not mean may very well slip out and feelings can be hurt. and sometimes sorry is not enough. unfortunately I am all to familiar with this and have lost a friend before because of it. I am insecure I admit it I do not like to be but, I am and I am praying that with the help of God I can become secure with him by my side. I have to just let go of the reins and let God take charge. There are so many aspects of life where we feel we must be in control but, we need to let go and that can be so hard to do. Sigh I need to work through feelings and thoughts before I start to speak or type maybe I can make that a goal for the new year. May God Bless you all and bring you Peace.

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Blind Trust

***WHY*** A word I have never thought to actually find out the definition to. You who read this know I am in to definitions so today I looked it up. Merriam Webster defines why as~ For what reason or purpose, it is used to offer a suggestion or to say that a course is not necessary, it is also used to express irritation or annoyance....ok so two of the three kinda pertain to my topic today. I chatted with a friend on FB last night and we were talking about an amazing little boy with DIPG (it is a brain cancer that is not operable and there is no cure and it is just so sad, I have two friends who had children go to Heaven because of this monster) he had an MRI last week and the tumor had shrunk to smaller then when he was diagnosed. We pray it is God healing him and not a delayed response to treatment. which brought up the question why??? My daughter who loves Jesus with everything in her asked me but, seems to have a problem with understanding why God does what He does she asked "mom WHY is God healing him and He didn't heal Aiden who had lots of people praying for him too?" That is one question I have asked myself, my friend was telling me that she asked the same question when it came to her son and she told me this, a friend told her "we don't get to know WHY, BUT, we are to trust God with it" BLIND TRUST people. In everything about our lives we have to T-R-U-S-T yes that five letter word a word that I am guessing most have a problem with. We can sometimes get angry at God and scream WHY at Him but, honestly the answer is not ours to know at least not for now. Instead of a Trusting God anonymous we should form a Trusting God unanimous. Our life is not complete we are always growing and changing and our lives touch others. We affect lives we touch even if we do not mean to.....and if we put our TRUST in God our lives can have purpose and meaning. The question should not be Why??? but, Why not?

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas