A Hint Of Promise.....

I saw a double rainbow yesterday, it is not often that I get the pleasure of seeing one. When I looked at them the words A Hint Of Promise just popped into my mind. I just stared at them for a long while the first or "main" one was strong and vibrant and so full of color and beauty the second was almost just a hint of a rainbow yet still so visible and colorful and just as beautiful. I am different now than I was just a few months ago, things can happen that can and will spin an entire existence out of whack to the point where the certainty of life and where it is going is called into question. My questions? will I ever get past this happening? will my family? will we ever find peace? when will the pain stop and the healing begin? Like I said in my last post I am angry so very angry. I am dealing with wounds from the past that I thought had healed yet they have been torn wide open all over again on top of the hurt that my family is feeling. I am needed to be strong for my family and my strength is wearing thin I am tired. I am Peachy!!!! or so I tell people....I feel alone. I have stopped talking  to people I have shut down and I am dealing with it on my own because I am so tried of people telling me what I should or should not feel or think. I boycotted Mothers day, I begged for a reason to go to Church and I got silence....


Then God spoke to Noah and to his sons with him, saying: "And as for Me, behold, I establish My covenant with you and with your descendants after you, and with every living creature that is with you: the birds, the cattle, and every beast of the earth with you, of all that go out of the ark, every beast of the earth. Thus I establish My covenant with you: Never again shall all flesh be cut off by the waters of the flood; never again shall there be a flood to destroy the earth." And God said: "This is the sign of the covenant which I make between Me and you, and every living creature that is with you, for perpetual generations: I set My rainbow in the cloud, and it shall be for the sign of the covenant between me and the earth. It shall be, when I bring a cloud over the earth, that the rainbow shall be seen in the cloud; and I will remember My covenant which is between Me and you and every living creature of all flesh; the waters shall never again become a flood to destroy all flesh. The rainbow shall be in the cloud, and I will look on it to remember the everlasting covenant between God and every living creature of all flesh that is on the earth." And God said to Noah, "this is the sign of the covenant which I have established between Me and all flesh that is on the earth."
Genesis 9:8-17

I am not saying that God promised life would be peaches and cream but He did Promise us not to destroy us. Also He reminds us to look to Him at all times not just in time of need. I will admit I have wanted to boycott God as horrid as that sounds but I am angry yet again (or still whatever the case may be) my head says yes but my heart says silly girl God isn't going to let you go that easily.....will I get past this? hopefully so, will I ever see that light that is always said to be at the end of the tunnel?? again I hope so, will it be easy? no not at all, will I give up??? as much as I may want to probably not. I am searching for peace, Will I forgive those who hurt me and my family?? only time will tell but, I am reminded that Matthew 18:21-22 says Then Peter came to Him and said "Lord, how often shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? up to seven times?" Jesus said to him, "I do not say to you, up to seven times, but up to seventy times seven." so I really hope I do. Yesterday I saw A Hint Of Promise and it made me smile I mean really smile on my own for the first time in a long time....May God bring you peace and a hint of promise to you in your life.

That's my thought for the day,

Peachy but still Crazy for Christmas

I am Peachy!!!!!!!!!!

When life gives lemons make lemonade right??? So what about if life gives you rotten lemons???? What do you make then??? I have always tried to keep my posts upbeat and positive and all about God, today I am frustrated, angry, hurt and so much more I am not sure how to make something sweet out of a situation so sour. I have people who are a support and people who are praying but, what do I do when I am angry at God? Me personally I go to Church (at least I did yesterday) even if I did not feel like it, I listened to the message and absorbed what the Pastor was teaching (well I tried to) and I told people I am peachy  (I do not think they believed me). I am angry at the world, life and it's unfairness, people who shall remain nameless and at my Pastor and I do not even know why I am angry with him he has been so kind and loving and supportive through this ooey gooey yucky sour lemon mess and yet I am angry. I have been diving into my Bible looking for something just choosing random books to read hoping to stumble upon something to bring peace. I will admit it is the most I have read my Bible at one time in my life...I am searching for something and I know the answer is in there so I keep going. Yet I am still angry at people who have been nothing but kind and not in anyway involved in this ooey gooey lemon mess. I cry everyday and, I have feelings that I am told I should not have to feel yet, I can not help how I feel. I am told to release it to God and ya'll know I am always saying let go and let God....I am finding it easier said than done. It came to pass yep Mark Lowry has it right I just wish it would not have come at all it could have passed with out stopping by my life. But, pass it shall and I will come out of it at some point in time and maybe peace will come then too. I have debated on whether to post this one or not and it has certainly taken more time to write than usual, and I know there is a lesson in here to be learned not only by me but maybe someone else too. I am human, I am sinner I have bad days and I yell at God sometimes but, one thing I have hung on to is God is grace, love, kindness, forgiveness, mercy and there He is ALWAYS there no matter how mad I get at Him or how much I yell at Him, He NEVER leaves me. Deuteronomy 31:8 says And the Lord, He is the One who goes before you. He will be with you, He will not leave you nor forsake you; do not fear nor be dismayed. Am I still angry? Why yes, yes I am and God will have to work with me on that one, Am I still angry at my Pastor? No not so much anymore (but, admittedly yesterday I was when I started writing this post) I love my Pastor and the teachings he does and the sour lemon thingy is not his fault. I pray you are having blessing come down in your life and when life gives you lemons make a cheesecake, as for me???  I am peachy at least for now!

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas