How do you fix broken when the broken can't be fixed? The 14th of this month marks one year since the world my family knew came spiraling down and out of control and we became surrounded with pain, heartache, and an over whelming since of failure (well on my part at least.) It is almost like we are in a tug o war with ourselves and the family around us. One side believes one thing and we know the other. Families torn apart and broken. Hence how do you fix broken when the broken can't be fixed??? No amount of human trying will fix the unfixable but, there is One who can BUT, it is only in His time and not ours and as a human, sinner, mother, and imperfect being, waiting is not my strong suit. To be honest I am not sure I want it to be fixed except, for my husbands sake maybe one relationship could be. Am I wrong? Probably and that is mine alone to take and deal with. I can not change what happened or fix the brokenness that is here, we are still dealing and trying to move forward we have had so many struggles in the last year and I am sure we will face more in the months to come....we are in a grieving stage of sorts not the grieving one would expect but grieving none the less. I am tired so very tired and I am not sure how much longer I can keep moving forward on my own....the one thing I do know is this even though I feel all alone I know that God has not left my side. He is walking with me and when I can't seem to take the next step He picks my foot up and moves it forward. I live my life one day at a time. I was diagnosed with an anxiety from a counselor, I never thought I had anything like that on top of everything else now that is added to it. I put one foot in front of the other and when I can't God walks for me. I can't fix the broken but, God can I hope He fixes me soon. May God bless your life and every step you take and when the times get tough and you feel broken let God in and fix the brokenness inside you.
That's my thought for the day,
Crazy for Christmas
