Happy New Year

Hey Hey all it has been quite the year, I know I have not posted much at all but, I could not let the year end without one more post.

I will admit I have seen and felt so much this past year anywhere from depression to through the roof anxiety to feeling some actual peace, joy and love. amongst some anger and deep dislike and unforgiveness. I have learned lessons, made mistakes, been disappointed  had some hope and had hopes crushed. I have had people come and people go in my life I have spoke my mind and cringed to avoid a fight all in all there has been one constant, steady, never changing grace in my life, God! I have cried out to Him, Yelled at Him, worshiped Him and trusted Him through EVERYTHING this year has thrown at me. God has kept me mostly steady I wobbled in doubt a few times but I kept on going forward. Tripping over my mishaps I got back up and kept going. This year brings promise and Hope I am sure there will be trials but, I am optimistic those trials will not break me or make me because God has already made me and as long as I follow and live my best for Him I may crack, trip, hit walls but, I will not break. as we say goodbye to 2015 and hello to 2016 keep in mind you have a support who will carry you when needed and when we meet this time next year I pray you look back on blessings and lessons learned and ring in the next year with a smile. May God see you through, May you have many Blessings, May you find the right path, May you  see love, joy, peace and grace in the coming year Happy New Year!!!
 The Lord bless you, and keep you; The Lord make His face shine on you, And be gracious to you; The Lord lift up His countenance on you, and give you peace. Numbers 6:24-26

That's My Thought For The Day,

Crazy For Christmas

How do you fix the broken?

How do you fix broken when the broken can't be fixed? The 14th of this month marks one year since the world my family knew came spiraling down and out of control and we became surrounded with pain, heartache, and an over whelming since of failure (well on my part at least.) It is almost like we are in a tug o war with ourselves and the family around us. One side believes one thing and we know the other. Families torn apart and broken.  Hence how do you fix broken when the broken can't be fixed??? No amount of human trying will fix the unfixable but, there is One who can BUT, it is only in His time and not ours and as a human, sinner, mother, and imperfect being, waiting is not my strong suit. To be honest I am not sure I want it to be fixed except, for my husbands sake maybe one relationship could be. Am I wrong? Probably and that is mine alone to take and deal with. I can not change what happened or fix the brokenness that is here, we are still dealing and trying to move forward we have had so many struggles in the last year and I am sure we will face more in the months to come....we are in a grieving stage of sorts not the grieving one would expect but grieving none the less. I am tired so very tired and I am not sure how much longer I can keep moving forward on my own....the one thing I do know is this even though I feel all alone I know that God has not left my side. He is walking with me and when I can't seem to take the next step He picks my foot up and moves it forward. I live my life one day at a time. I was diagnosed with an anxiety from a counselor, I never thought I had anything like that on top of everything else now that is added to it. I put one foot in front of the other and when I can't God walks for me. I can't fix the broken but, God can I hope He fixes me soon. May God bless your life and every step you take and when the times get tough and you feel broken let God in and fix the brokenness inside you.

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas