~Dear Santa~

Dear Santa~

I have to say that I am not sure you are real but, the Spirit of Saint Nick is very much real in the love, kindness, generosity, and the giving all around. Even with the economy the way it is we see you. I have to say if I could sit on your lap and tell you what I would like for Christmas it would be cool but, what I want I know is not anything you can provide so I will wish for something else. Not for myself but, for all of the kids all over the world. I wish for someone to be kind and give to a child who may otherwise get nothing. I wish for a cure for DIPG cancer so other families do not have to actually suffer the loss of a child and face a Holiday without them. I wish for Joy all year for the lost, homeless, depressed, angry, lonely and sick. I wish for the TRUE Spirit of Christmas be recognized in the world instead of the commercialism of it. I wish for the star, Angels, donkey, Shepherds, Wise men and Manger with our Lord lying inside preparing to live so He may die. Mostly I wish to give what I can of myself without with holding from my family. So this season I wish for LOVE, JOY and some PEACE even if it is for just awhile. With all of that said I wish for it to last year round so Hope can be found and spread to everyone....So Santa if I can have a wish there it is and if anything is left over you already know what it is.

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Tis the Season~

Gladelig Jul, Nadolig Llawen a Blwyddyn Newydd Dda, Hyvaa joulua, Joyeux Noel, Mele Kalikimaka, Froehliche Weihnachten, Kala Christouyenna, Nollaig Chridheil  agus Bliadhna Mhath Ur....So many ways to say one thing........MERRY CHRISTMAS! With 31 days to go the and the frenzies begin try to keep in mind the ones who do not have anything and do something for someone. it might help their spirit of Christmas along it does not have to be much. I find myself lately seeing something or reading something and just breaking and the tears just roll I am not sure why they just do. I want so much for people to see God this season and to get to know Him and know He is why we have Christmas. All of the main symbols point to Jesus Himself as Christmas.

 The evergreen tree~ Because it is green year round, it represents hope. It's needles and the narrow top point upward, making us think of Heaven. Because we cut the tree down and put it back up in our homes or where ever we put them it is a symbol of the Resurrection of Jesus.

Candles and Christmas lights~ They represent Jesus the light of the world. Then Jesus spoke to them saying "I am the light of the world. He who follows me shall not walk in darkness, but have the light of life." John 8;12
Candles and lights add to the festiveness but remember you can be a light and not just for a season but everyday.

The Candy Cane~ The shepherds crook is represented by the sweet yumminess of the candy cane. It reminds us that Jesus is the good shepherd and He came into our world and we have Christmas because of Him. The red stripes are Jesus's sacrifice and the the white is His purity.

No matter how you see it Christ is all over Christmas these are just a few there are more. Just please this year keep Christ in your Christmas light up your tree, be a light to someone who has no hope, tell someone about the Good Shepherd and give someone a candy cane. No matter the language Danish, Celtic, Finnish, French, Hawaiian, German, Greek or Scottish it all says the same thing Merry Christmas!!!!!

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Onward and Upward

I seem at a loss for words....I have something I want to say but for some reason I am not able to get it out. I have been thinking a lot about friends lately past and present...some more recently past than most. My heart hurts for the friends I have lost but lately I have been thinking that I was lost to them before I lost them. I know I said some things that were hurtful, I was hurt but, that is not an excuse Jesus would not have said it but, I did. I lost two friends that day one I will admit was very dear to me and I thought I was to her. I apologized to her and I pray for her everyday, I pray for blessings and peace and love for her and her family. I am not angry not anymore at least. In past posts I have talked about forgiveness for others but, we need to forgive ourselves too. If we beat ourselves up over something nothing will be accomplished and it will only hurt us in the end. We can not make someone forgive us we can only say I'm sorry and hope that maybe one day they can find it in their heart to forgive. In the meantime we must move forward and continue to live and show the world the Love and Forgiveness of God so that others can live too. Time does not stop even if we want it to, words can not be taken back, and friendships will be broken....In our walks with God the one thing we can rely on is GOD NEVER FAILS!!!! He will pick us up and dust us off and always forgive and that in itself is a comfort. He heals the broken heart and sets the captives free, He gives us reminders and they are not always gentle as to what we need to do or learn. As we take the first step in moving forward keep in  mind that there are others that know what it feels like no matter what you are going through God can provide, comfort and send you a shoulder to cry on....and it is ok to cry....I will be just fine I have made new friends and my heart will eventually stop aching from the ones I lost so here I go ONWARD and UPWARD with God at the controls.

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

I am Thankful, That I am Thankful!

Thanksgiving is just around the corner and after that CHRISTMAS!!!!! The last year has not been easy for me...my heart breaks to watch my kids struggle and know I am not able to change things to make them better. Sometimes I feel like I am fighting a losing battle then I remember God's Grace, Mercy and Love I fall to my knees (figuratively I am not sure I would be able to get back up) and I pray it does not have instant answers but it does give some peace. This month will mark a year since I was diagnosed with RA an autoimmune disease it gets hard to move sometimes not to mention the extra pain I have on top of what I experience from my accident yet I keep moving and I try to have a positive attitude, it is not always easy when you hurt all of the time. In the last year we had to move back into our trailer, my son lost his kitty, my Aunt fought and won lung cancer, we have to go farther for work and school, our car is falling apart our family loses another pet my best friend loses her child, I lost three friends due to misunderstandings and I was in two more car accidents in which I was not moving again and someone hit me. Let me tell you I have to wonder if there is anything to be thankful for. The answer is YES!!!! I have my family under one roof granted it is small but, we are together, My husband has a job with benefits so we can see a Dr. when we need to, we have heat and a way to prepare food, we have food. There is more I can list they are small and may seem insignificant to some BUT, they are things I can be thankful for. The season of giving and thinking of others is upon us and I hope and pray that you will think of someone even if it is just one and do something for them. It can be anything a note, card, cup of coffee it does not have to be huge and I bet it will make someones day. Through the rough time I have had, I am in a better place than when we lived in the trailer before. I trust God to provide, and to comfort and to give peace that in itself makes a huge difference in who I am and how I live.....I am Thankful that I am thankful.

Happy Thanksgiving all

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

The recipe of life....

The future is uncertain....in that uncertainty there is a flavor of mystery, a dash of excitement and a pinch or more of panic. To add some extra spice to this main dish of uncertainty there is a smidgen of faith, trust and a side of questions. We blindly go through our life and we do not know exactly where we are going or why we are going there. We do not know why things happen the way they do and why we can experience utter devastation or extreme joy...we just do but, there is a reason. We can not see it, but, it could be to help us grow in our faith in God or there may be a lesson waiting to be learned. Whatever it is the one thing to keep in mind is this...God has His own reasons and we may not understand them but, the end product should be more then we could ever expect. I am learning that one in my life now God is providing in ways I never imagined whatever happens He is right there stirring and mixing right along side of me. The Chef of my life has more "cooking" experience than I ever will and I need to step back and watch what he is going to teach me. God has the "cookbook" of me all memorized and if I try to add a spice that is not in a recipe He has to fix it and it takes longer to complete. I have found that my helping is more of a hindrance than a help and it messes up the "recipe" and the flavor is off and it may just have to be tossed and restarted. I am not patient I never have been and restarting anything has not been fun, if one of my kids messes with something I am not happy to have to restart, it is a waste of time and energy....with that said why must we insist on "helping" God? I am thinking He is doing a pretty good job we just have to trust He is going to provide and help things along and not interfere with the progress....In the recipe of life God knows the recipe He does not need any help from us and I am thinking life will taste a whole lot better......

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Searcher of my soul

I was going to write about soul searching and learning from what I have sought but, when I looked up the meaning of soul searching the definition kinda threw me for a loop. Merriam Websters dictionary defines soul searching as: examination of one's conscience especially with regard to motives and values....I was always under the impression that it meant looking into one self and trying to find out who we are, who we wanted to be, to search and find the true us. When I started this blog a little over a year ago I did not know what to expect. I was doing "soul searching" at the time and learning once again to hear God's voice and  trying to rely only on Him. I will say it is a struggle almost like when our kids hit the terrible twos...I'm the toddler God is the parent. I can see God working in my life, His hand has always been there but, I panic when things happen that I have no control over. Instead of just trusting I try to help...we all know what happens when a toddler tries to help. God wants us to seek Him, trust Him, rely on Him, and NOT help Him.

As I start a new chapter (maybe paragraph would be a better way to put it) in my life I see struggles, frustrations, irritation and total discombobulation...God sees me, my family, my life, and how this will end up.
He sees the completion I see nothing....except negative. I don't want to see negative I want to keep my eyes on God and see only Him. I do not want to stress, and cry, and break down, I want to move forward and hold my head up, keep one foot in front of the other...the only way I can do that is, if I stop trying and start relying.....so instead of soul searching to find me, I need to reach out to the searcher of my soul, and lay it at His feet.

Our future is unknown, our past is hindsight but, our present is now. Our now should be only about God and not about me.

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas

Ribbit!

5 if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him.
James 1:5 (NKJV)

I try to always post uplifting, encouraging posts, sometimes however I find it difficult to do. When we look at our life we see our life play out in scenes and then, we see other peoples scenes playing.......admittedly sometimes we almost wish we had good things happen like they do but, what we do not think about is they may be wishing the same thing about us.

I want so desperately to be a good mom and wife yet, I seem to find myself lacking in tons of areas. I fail in so many ways, I make mistakes and I do not always make the best choices.....I see other moms and think I wish I was as good as her...What I do not see is her struggles. What can I say? I am human and I unfortunately think I break the 10th commandment as my children seem to break the 5th but, it is their choice and not mine to break the 5th but, it is all on me when I break the 10th. We will have our ummm difficulties and arguments and I get so frustrated and yes angry. The attitudes and disrespect of the current generation has hit home with us. I understand fully that they have frustrations, they fully experience them and I need to understand them and that is so hard to do.

As I stare at my screen and I am drinking my eggnog coffee (yes it is that time of year again only 88 days until Christmas) I am reminded that as people we make mistakes, we make choices that really must have God shaking His head at us, Yet He does not lose His patience with us. He stays calm and waits for us to realize what we are doing and ask for help...(my opinion here). This morning was rough and I have been reminded (I am sure by God Himself) that Wisdom is only a prayer away but, are we prepared for it? Will we accept it? and what will we do with it when it comes? When asking God for things we need to be prepared to FROG for it.

I am sure you are shaking your head and asking yourself FROG? I love frogs I have a family of stuffed frogs, Fa La La, Noel, Mistletoe, Ginger, Dasher, Tannenbaum and Snowflake but, little ribbts are not what I am talking about. We saw it on a Church Bill Board and loved it so, what does it mean???? How many can say I FROG? I will admit I struggle with it especially when all I can seem to see is negative things happen to my family. So FROG? do you Fully Rely On God?

So when asking God for ANYTHING Wisdom, Grace, Mercy, Forgiveness if we can learn to choose to wait and have patience (which I do not ask for) good things will happen we just need to FROG for it!!! I am tired and frustrated but, I know God gave me the job of raising my two kids. He must be confidant that I can do it so today I will FROG.......Ribbit!

That's my thought for the day,

Crazy for Christmas